I Love You

18

Yibo stood there looking at Xiao Zhan. He turned around and left the room. It's true that when Darren came in and slowly took Xiao Zhan away, he felt the need to get Xiao Zhan back to his side.

It's true that he has never lived with Xiao Zhan and they wouldn't know if they are a good match, if they can handle each other's habits.

It's true that if he really loved Xiao Zhan, he he will never ever continue with his one night stands. Deep in Yibo's heart, Yibo also knew Xiao Zhan was a good excuse to not get forced into a marriage.

But the moment Yibo saw Xiao Zhan again, his heart thumped and Xiao Zhan was all he could see. 4 years of making Xiao Zhan as an excuse made Yibo think of him often.

Since he saw Xiao Zhan, he was never able to touch anyone else and never had his one night stands anymore.

Ever since Xiao Zhan came back, he knew Xiao Zhan is truly the one for him. It cannot be anyone but Xiao Zhan. And now, he has to pay for fooling around.

Meanwhile, Xiao Zhan had burst into tears. It hurt him seeing Yibo leave. He wanted Yibo to take him in his arms or pat his head like in the past.

He wished Yibo was close to him but right now, he needs some time. Time to accept this Yibo, who separates love and lust.

He also wants Yibo to sort his feelings out, whether it is love or just an obsession over someone who used to follow him around.

Yibo went home and his father stopped him once again. But Yibo took out a few papers and placed it in front of his father.

"Dad, I have treated you as a Father but I can say you do not treat me as a son. You treat me as something you can use to gain more money and power.

Stop saying you want me to take your business and you are doing all these for me. I'm tired of it. I'll say it for the last time. I'm not marrying the person you arranged, because I never liked her, nor the idea.

I want to find my own love. And I've found it. If you think I'm not a good son, just sign these papers. I don't need your money and power.

I just hope you give me a chance to do what I want and let me continue being your son. I wouldn't have done this if you haven't kept forcing me... Father..."

Yibo then went up to his room. He took out the bunny soft toy Xiao Zhan gave him when he first saw him. Yibo smiled.

Then his smile faded. Holding the bunny up, he smiled again. Yibo in his mind, thought about his feelings. He then hugged the bunny tightly with a smile.

"Zhan Zhan, I love you" Yibo said and got up. He washed up and he planned on how to court Xiao Zhan. And show him that he loves him.

Meanwhile, Xiao Zhan was eating silently. Darren could tell he cried and could guess the reason why. Slowly, Xiao Zhan placed his utensils down. "Darren... Did I change?"

Darren placed his utensils down too "Zhan, everyone changes. After I met you, I changed. I became even braver, even more daring and even more open. For me, I think it's a good thing.

When Yibo broke your heart, you changed too. You became more aware. You put up defensive walls. You then learned to open yourself to others again. I think it is a good thing."

"How about... a bad change?" Xiao Zhan asked and Darren chuckled "Zhan Zhan, ever since we left, you putting up your defence walls, isn't it a bad thing?"

Xiao Zhan nodded and fiddled around with his fingers. Darren sat beside him "Zhan Zhan, don't close yourself again just because you don't want to get hurt.

I don't know what your talked about but if you are avoiding everything because you don't want to feel hurt like before, then don't avoid it.

Because if you do get hurt, I am here to help you. I will be by your side to protect you so give yourself and Yibo a chance to face the bad things together"

Xiao Zhan nodded "Darren... I'm really thankful... I can't ask for a better companion" Xiao Zhan giggled.

Darren laughed and stood up while he started boasting "I'm glad you know my worth. Who else can be better than me?"

Xiao Zhan chuckled and they quickly finished their food before Darren made Xiao Zhan sleep again.

The next day, Yibo came to visit Xiao Zhan. He bought a bouquet of flowers and a lion soft toy as a get well soon gift.

However, Xiao Zhan was still sleeping. Yibo walked around, not knowing what to do. Finally, he sat beside Xiao Zhan and silently took his hand in his.

When Xiao Zhan woke up, he was surprised to see Yibo. He tried sitting up but felt dizzy. In the end, Yibo helped him up.

Xiao Zhan looked around. He saw the flowers placed on the small table above his legs. He saw the soft toy beside his pillow.

Xiao Zhan bit his lower lip. He did not expect Yibo to come. Suddenly, Yibo spoke up. "Zhan Zhan, I admit I did take you for granted. I might have mistaken obsession for love.

I did not want to be tied down by a marriage to someone I don't love. I didn't like the guilty feeling because I had promised myself to only have sex with the one person I love forever.

I admit that you were a great excuse. And I admit that I was feeling possessive over you, whom I thought will stay by me your whole life because you love me, even if I don't love you back.

I said I was waiting for you but in actual fact, I just hated that you were getting along with someone else when you should only have your eyes on me and I hated it more when you actually left with him.

But what I feel now is different. I really love you, love your smile, love your voice. I love how you are shy, yet strong headed. I also love how you treat your students so well that they are all your mini fans.

My heart beats for you and my mind keeps thinking about you. I am sure what I feel for you now is love."

Xiao Zhan was surprised. Gathering his courage and making a decision, Xiao Zhan replied "Yibo... can we start again? From the start?"

Yibo smiled "Of course, Zhan! T-Thank you for giving me another chance... Let's start again. From the start"