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Element XXVII

Element 27

Leaving the dinner, I hopped into Michael's car deciding that riding with him was better than being with Zayne.

Pulling back onto the expressway, I couldn't help but to feel so stupid. All this time, I let some feelings for a stranger cloud my better judgment. I knew I should not have made myself vulnerable. I should have shoved the feelings I had for Zayne deep down inside myself before I could let him hurt me.

The funny thing is, I didn't even know what those feelings were. Sure the guy was hot but did I actually like him or the idea of him? My whole life I have kept my distance from the opposite sex. Sure, I was attractive enough but I never allowed myself the opportunity for a relationship. So how come, just one look from Zayne and I'm suddenly willing to just give that up?

And what did he mean when he said he "rejects" me? Is he saying he doesn't like me? Or is he rejecting the very idea of me? Last time I checked, I never mentioned anything about liking him or wanting to be with him. So why "reject" me?

Watching the rain hit the window; I leaned my forehead on the glass and watched the forest race past my eyes. Thinking back on his words, I realize that it's my pride that has been hurt. What he said was true, I am sixteen and I have no idea what I am doing. I just shifted for the first time two weeks ago and I can't expect to save the world. I have so much to learn and so much time to grow. Was the goddess foolish to pick someone so young?

However, I have no right to question her motives. But I could still wonder right? There were so many werewolves out there that could have handled something like this so I don't get why I was the one picked.

"Rebecca, you there?" Reaching out to my wolf, I think I needed another pep talk again.

"Yes, I am here young one."

"Are you okay?" Scrunching my brow, she took her time to answer because I knew she was going through the same thing I was.

"To be honest, I think so. Like you said, I believe my pride is hurt. For that imbecile to reject me for no reason was idiotic and childish on his part. However, I cannot help but to feel almost relived?

Confused, I waited for her to continue before interrupting her.

"You see, we were rejected and we are still okay. We didn't fall apart or start to cry, we actually showed him how much of a badass we are and he is going to hate it when he has to eat his words one day."

Chuckling to myself, I knew she would figure out a way to spin this around to make me feel better.

"Imagine the look on his face when he realizes how much he regrets saying what he did to us. True, we have much more to learn but 'useless' will not be a word to describe us anymore." With her words, I felt any hurt I experienced from Zayne's leave me in an instant and confidence replaced it instead.

"We are pretty badass aren't we?" Asking Rebecca, I couldn't help but to reflect on what we have gone through.

"Are you kidding me? What wolf can say they lived through both their parent's death to become the first female Knight Wolf to shift from a human mother? Also, the fact that you already surpassed your mentor, who is a royal wolf, without ever using your abilities, is absolutely amazing! We were definitely meant for more than that loser's affections."

Smiling, she was right, until that last detail hit me.

"That's the thing though Rebecca, we still haven't used our abilities..." Trying not to sound concerned, but what if I never develop them. I will be the first female Knight Wolf who is a dud.