A Desire for More (Kylo Ren x Reader)

Chapter Twenty Three: It's Time

A sense of calm came over you as you visited the Resistance base in your sleep. You watched them interacting with each other, that familiar longing rising inside of you.

A voice ripped you from your thoughts, and you recognized General Organa, making her way through the camp.

"Prepare yourselves," she called out, looking into each persons face, acknowledging them as she went.

You watched her with fascination, obsessed with the feeling she left you with.

"We leave in a few hours time."

Panic set in as you watched them scramble, starting to pack up their stuff.

They're leaving. They're leaving with the map, what am I supposed to do? The First Order, they're-

You sat straight up in bed, your head spinning, your heart rate accelerated. Kylo looked up from his seat on the floor, jumping to his feet when he saw your anxious, panicked expression.

"They're leaving,"

Kylo knelt on the bed in front of you, his hands holding your face, trying to calm you down.

"The Resistance, they're leaving their base."

Kylo quickly pulled away, his brow furrowed, panic starting to dig its claws in him as well.

"You saw this? When? Where are they going?"

You clambered off the bed, quickly collecting clothes off the floor.

"I don't know," you grunted as you pulled your shirt over your head. "But they're leaving today."

Kylo quickly began to pile armor over his underclothes, pulling on his boots, fastening his belt and lightsaber to his waist, and finishing with his cloak and mask.

"We need to inform Hux," Kylo started heading towards the door, glancing at you over his shoulder. "We need to leave as soon as possible."

You nearly fell over as you pulled on your pants and boots, lacing them tightly.

"But we weren't supposed to attend to this mission for another week!"

Noticing that you sounded concerned, you quickly followed after Kylo, fastening your own belt and lightsaber around your waist as you walked through the base.

"I mean, our resources are still weakened, right?"

Kylo looked over his shoulder at you as you followed after him, pulling your cloak over your head.

"That's a risk we're going to have to deal with."

His modified voice bounced off the metallic walls, making other people in the corridors shrink away from the two of you.

Kylo barged into General Hux's office with you trailing after him.

"Ren, what could possibly be so important that would make you almost break the door? Why-"

"The Resistance,"you cut Hux off, stepping around Kylo and standing in front of the desk. "They're leaving their base. Today,"

Hux jumped from his spot at the desk, grabbing his data pad and pushing past you before walking out the door.

"And you're just telling me this now?"
Hux spat at you and you glared at the back of his head, wishing you could light his red hair on fire as you and Kylo followed after him.

"Excuse me, sir, but I just found out myself,"

Hux ignored you and continued stomping through the base, yelling orders at random employees as he went.

Just as you considered using the Force to fling Hux into a wall, Kylo took hold of your wrist, silently telling you: this isn't the time.

You rolled your eyes, but did nothing, following Hux to the military sector of the base.

Storm Troopers scrambled to attention as the three of you approached, standing with their weapons at the ready.

"We have just been informed," Hux glanced over at you, glaring. "That the Resistance intends to leave their base today. Despite our weakened state, we must prevent this from happening in order to obtain what we need from them."

Still after that precious map.

Hux spat orders at the 'troopers and they began scrambling to prepare for departure.

"Slona,"

Hux's voice cut through you, his tone filled with distaste.

"The captain of this squadron was killed in our most recent endeavor," Hux narrowed his eyes at you and spoke slowly, as if he didn't want to say what came next. "So it is now your responsibility to lead them today."

Hux stepped towards you, his sneering face inches from yours.

"Are you sure you can handle it, hmm? Or are you going to order them not to kill any of the Resistance, like you were unable to do?"

You glared at the floor, flinching slightly as one of his fingers tilted your chin up to look at him.

"I hope you know that at any sign of betrayal," Hux's voice was deadly quiet, disgust filling you as his breath lingered on your face. "My men will not hesitate to eliminate you."

You shoved Hux away from you, almost slamming him to the floor. Silently, you focused on gripping his throat as you walked towards him again, watching him struggle not to show signs of discomfort. You imagined squeezing his neck a little tighter and he sputtered against your invisible grasp.

"If you ever speak to me like that again," you continued your hold on him as you stared at him threateningly. "I will not hesitate to have you eliminated."

With that, you released him and stormed away, sensing his anger but knowing that he wouldn't do anything, at least not at the moment.

Luckily for me, you will never get the chance.

You sensed Kylo watching you, knowing that he saw what you just did and said to Hux, but he said nothing. You sighed gratefully as you followed him and the Storm Troopers onto a shuttle, glad that he was too focused on your little outburst instead of your thoughts.

You stood next to Kylo on the shuttle, holding onto one of the wall hangings to steady yourself as the ship took off. Without thinking, you began to chew on the skin around the nail on your thumb, trying to release your nervous energy.

You looked over at Kylo, desperately wanting to see his face. Knowing that everyone else in the shuttle wasn't paying attention, you nudged Kylo softly with your foot, making him look at you.

Silently you pleaded with him to take off his mask, just for a second, as you stared into the place where his eyes should be.

Sensing your unease, Kylo obliged, soft hissing sounds coming from his helmet as he removed it.

You stepped closer, wishing you could touch him but knowing he wouldn't approve in the current situation.

He stared down at you, his eyes narrowing when he sensed your conflicting emotions. Slowly, silently, he lifted a gloved hand to your face and you leaned into it, closing your eyes, appreciating his affection.

You placed a hand on his chest, able to feel his heart beating faintly underneath all of his armor. Your eyes traveled across his face and landed on his lips, forcing you to fight the urge to stand on your tiptoes and kiss him.

You stumbled into him as the shuttle landed and you pushed aside your panic as you realized you had reached the Resistance base.

As Kylo reached for his mask to put it back on, you used the Force to stop him, giving yourself a chance to look him in the eyes for just a second longer.

Finally giving into your urge, you quickly stood on your tip toes and kissed him, trying to ignore the sound of the shuttle door opening and the Storm Troopers hastening down the ramp.

Your hand was planted around the back of his neck as you held Kylo to you, desperately trying to hold onto this moment, desperately not wanting to let go.