Reluctantly, you broke the kiss and straightened your clothes, preparing yourself to exit the ship. Kylo looked at you softly, his mouth opening and closing as if he wanted to say something but couldn't find the right words.
You smiled up at him sadly as he placed the helmet back on his head, wishing you could just look at him forever, just get lost in his eyes and commit every inch of his beautiful face to memory.
With a sigh, you followed him to the mouth of the ship before descending down the ramp, looking cautiously around the base. All was silent for just a single moment.
But then all hell broke loose.
At the sight of you and the Commander descending the ramp, a small group of Resistance members came running across the camp, their blasters firing in every direction. Storm Troopers began to drop left and right as you watched, feeling frozen with your hand grasping your lightsaber at your belt.
The sound of Kylo's lightsaber cutting through the air broke you out of your trance and you ignited your own weapon, easily deflecting the shots that flew at you.
"Slona!" Kylo called over to you as he effortlessly sliced someone in half. "Find the Rebel with the map."
You began racing through the base, darting in between disheveled tents as you went, trying to avoid the bolts of heat shooting over your head.
The further you ran, the more and more people began to follow you, wanting to stop you from reaching your unknown destination.
"Shit!"
You tripped and fell to the ground when you felt a stinging bite at your hip. Seriously? The same spot as last time?
Three Resistance members quickly surrounded you as you rolled onto your back, pointing their blasters in your face.
"Woah woah woah, guys hold on,"
You nervously stared into each of their faces, sensing their anger towards you. You looked past a pair of feet, seeing your lightsaber just a few inches away.
"You're a traitor," one of the men spat at you, grinding his teeth.
"We've seen the destruction you've helped with," another man sank down to get closer to you, his weapon inches from your face.
You pleadingly looked up at the other two, noticing that the woman was looking at you curiously.
"Listen, guys, first I'd like to say: I was never in the Resistance in the first place." you sat up slowly, trying to avoid getting a gun shoved into your eye. "And I know you don't trust me, not even a little bit, like not even at all, like you guys totally-"
"Just spit it out," the woman rolled her eyes at you, looking annoyed with your sputtering.
"Ok, ok, fine. Listen: The First Order, they want the map, the one that leads to Skywalker,"
The three of them looked at each other and then back at you, seeming to be listening intently.
"They won't even think about hesitating to wipe out each and every one of you right now if they think they'll be able to get ahold of the map."
The sounds of screams in the distance we're becoming fainter, meaning there weren't many people left anyway.
"But I might be able to convince them not to if you, if you just give it to them."
"What, give them the map?" The shorter of the two men laughed angrily and shook his head. "I don't think so!"
"Besides, it's already gone, they already left with it. So ha! Take that bitch,"
The woman glared at the two men, silently telling them to shut up. Ok, she's obviously the one in charge.
You stared up at her in surprise as she extended a hand to you, pulling you to your feet.
"Why would you even offer to help us? You could easily just use your wizard powers or some shit and kill us right now."
You nervously tore at the skin around your nails as they surrounded you, all of them somehow taller than you.
"I don't, I don't know. I just-"
The sound of a ship landing behind you shut you up. You whipped around to face it before looking back at your captors. Or maybe they're my saviors?
"Look, whatever your reason is, I don't really care right now. But we have to leave."
The two men had already started speeding towards the ship, heading up the entrance ramp.
"What? Leave with you guys?"
She nodded at you, her eyes staring intensely into yours.
"Leave The First Order behind, join us."
Before you had the chance to respond, you looked over her shoulder, seeing Kylo race towards you, his lightsaber ignited.
The woman quickly turned around before running past you, turning around to beckon at you to follow her.
Again you felt frozen, but you turned to follow her. You limped as you went, but the pain in your heart was so much worse.
"Slona!"
Kylo's voice cut through the air, piercing you.
You stood at the edge of the entrance ramp, watching him head towards you, noticing that he had taken off his helmet. Biting your lip, you extended a hand, focusing on stopping him, pinning his feet to the ground.
Kylo stopped mid stride, his lightsaber held at his side, his body shaking with anger.
You slowly backed up the ramp, making your way into the ship. Kylo's face was furious, his mouth contorted into a snarl, his lips trembling.
You felt crushed as you looked into his eyes, seeing the desperation in them, a single word visible: stay.
With the last bit of your strength, while still holding him in place, you tried to connect your minds, trying to show him your emotions.
As the door to the ship closed, Kylo's body slowly disappeared from view. Tears slipping down your face, you tried to maintain the bridge between your minds, one thing echoing over and over again:
I'm sorry
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