She's right I'm being selfish and acting like a spoilt brat. Just because I find Camilla more attractive doesn't mean that I should dismiss the relationship with Gabby. Me and Gabby might work and if I don't try I might fuck up a good thing. For what the chance to hook up with Camilla, what if it doesn't work or doesn't progress to anything.
I didn't have to like the fact she was fucking my friend though.
I walked out and went to my bedroom. I watched Gabby sleep. Was I having doubts before I met Camilla? I can't remember. I've know this girl less than a week and I was willing to throw away a model like Gabby. I'm either crazy, stupid or in love. And I'm pretty certain it's not the latter. Surely not.
Yeah Gabby had a few cons but doesn't everyone. No-ones perfect. Camilla sure comes close though.
Even seeing them fucking last night. I don't think Gabby would ever do that. She likes to be in a bed. I tried to be spontaneous and do it in my car and she complained. So I'm guessing a sink would be a no go. I don't want to be stuck having boring sex for the rest of my life. That's when I get bored and I start to stray. It's not something I condone but I'm guilty of cheating in the past. I was really trying to not do that now but Camilla is making me feel all sorts of unfaithful thoughts.
But then again Gabby is really nice. She understands my work. She's willing to work around it and maybe even come on tour with me. That's a big thing. She had her own job that she doesn't have to stay in one place for just like me. I owe it to her to try. Maybe if she comes on this small leg of the tour and we can see how it goes. I need to arrange that today. It will help with the uncertainty.
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I felt sick after Austin left. I needed to get out of here. I pulled my clothes on from last night and after thinking about it pulled the t-shirt on. Thinking better than to walk out of here in just the lace body. I call one of my driver's and send them my location. Not putting my shoes on because I don't want to draw any attention to myself I sneak out of the house without disturbing anyone. I wait on the street for my car and they know better than to ask any questions when I jump in the car.
I take a long hot shower when I get home blasting music to try and drown the thoughts of Austin from my head. It would just be my luck that Gabby would be going out with the one person I was crushing on. Tylas hot and everything but I couldn't see it going anywhere. With Austin, I would give him babies if he asked me to and I never thought I would have kids. He made me feel weak but confident. I've never felt such conflicting emotions.
I felt that gut feeling of being watched again. I peered round the shower and there he was. The man who was clouding my judgement. He looked mouth watering just lent against my door frame.
"Are you going to make this a regular occurrence?" I shook my head
"You left without saying goodbye. You snuck out of my house. So I snuck into yours" he looked slightly annoyed.
"Where's Gabby?" I ignore his comments
"She's packing. She's coming on tour with me" he chews his cheek
"Good, I'm glad you're making an effort. Now if you don't mind I need to rinse my hair" I close the shower door and step back into the stream of water. I feel his arm snake round my waist and pull my naked body against his torso. His large hand spread across my stomach, holding me firmly. He nuzzles his face into my neck licking, sucking and kissing upto my jaw. I feel my legs go weak and my wetness pool between them.
"I'm not forgetting our attraction. You definitely look better soaked" he licks my earlobe and closes the door. I put both my hands on the wall as I hold myself up. Fuck. I am soaked. I run my hands down my naked body as I lean back against the cold tile. I imagine they are his hands. That he's come back in and can't help but touch me. I pull at my nipples and grab the small shower head. I turn it on to the fast stream and focus it in my clit. I grind my hips as it massages my nub. Me imagining it's his head between my legs. I run my hand down and rub my clit as the water flows making me cum while thinking of his face. Shit . I shouldn't be doing this. This was definitely wrong. Gabby would be heartbroken if I betrayed her and continue this thing with Austin. It needed to end. I needed to tell him he couldn't tease me like this.
I quickly rinsed off, did my skin routine and threw on some PJs. I made my way to the kitchen to see if we had anything good in to eat. I stood In Front of my double refrigerator and nothing stood out. I hadn't done much grocery shopping lately because Gabby was never home. I would just get something on my way home either to cook myself or take out.
"I'm feeling olive garden" his raspy voice speaks up from the sofa. I hadn't even noticed him there. "Your ass looks good in those shorts"
"Austin, you need to stop that. No more shower visits. No more flirting. No more touching. It's not fair on any of us"
"I can't promise that." He shrugs
