Mi amor

~11~

"No." 

"Oscar please don't fucking do this." 

"Everything has been good." 

"Do you really mean it?" 

I looked at his glassy eyes. He didn't look like he was joking.

"(y/n) Its for the best." He tried to touch my arm. Nope. I shrugged him of and looked away. Damn, he had taken me to the same beach we had our first date at to break up. He obviously wanted this to hit hard. Damn maybe he was heartless like everyone thought. He certainly wasn't acting like the guy I got to know. 

"Don't fucking touch me."  I couldn't believe that the person who meant the world to me was walking away from me. After everything as well. He told me he would protect me but obviously that wasn't true 

"I thought we had something, but obviously not. So can you just take me home now." 

"I love you." 

"No you don't. take me home." I didn't care what else he had to say so I just started walking to his car. Why would he break up with me so far away that I had to be in a car with him on the way back. Had he not thought of that. 

The car ride home was hella awkward. I stared out the window the whole way and ignored him. I still didn't really understand why he would do this, did I do something. Maybe I got too annoying. Or maybe he was bored of me and was moving onto some chola. He tried to speak t me when he pulled up at my house but I just left. 

I was surprised i hadn't started crying sooner, but as soon as I closed the door I started bawling my eyes out. I slid down to the floor. I had no more energy to keep going. Every day things just seemed to be getting worse. what the fuck. I didn't want to feel anymore. I wanted to escape my misery. I lay at the door crying until it was dark outside. I didn't know what time it was and I didn't care. Nothing mattered anymore. I needed to get out. 

I got a jacket then walked to the nearest corner store. I bought a bottle of vodka and went to a park. I'd never been to this place before but that didn't matter. I found a tree and sat under it. I sipped and cried. The world started to fade away. Just like I wanted it to. I drank until I couldn't manage to hold the bottle. 

It got dark. 

This was it. 

It's over. 

Finally the pain is over. 

Finally I can be happy. 

Its over. 

Darkness.

"Do you think shes gonna wake up?" 

"I don't know,"