Mi amor

~ 10 ~

~Your Pov ~

I got out of bed, I didn't know what time it was but it was dark outside, I couldn't sleep because it hurt to lie down. I sat outside of Oscars house on the steps, it was so peaceful at night, there were no gang members of hoes smoking outside on the sofas. There were no cars going past, not even any birds chirping. I thought to myself that I would have to come out at this time more often. I just sighed and breathed in the crisp morning air. I couldn't help but feel done with all the bullshit, I suddenly felt a longing for my dads arms to be around me. I hadn't see him for so long now because the mortgage for our house went up and he was having to work more to pay it off. I needed to get a job so he didn't have to worry about things like buying me clothes or school books anymore. And then on top of that Oscar had threatened to break up with me, which I could hardly bear to think about... Maybe I did need a break actually. Time to focus on myself? The truth is that I don't even know what I needed. I always just go with the flow, but that doesn't really work when shit is fucked up. I started to get cold so I decided to go on a little walk. I decided it would be safe enough because no ones on the streets at this time unless they at a party and I wasn't going on any Prophet$ streets so I would be fine. 

I didnt walk that far, just around the block, I saw one person running so I thought it must be about 5 or something. I was so sleepy but I knew I wouldn't be able to get to sleep. 

When i got back inside it was 6am Oscar wasn't up yet so I climbed back into bed. He was lightly snoring. I loved watching him when he slept. I know that seem creepy but its just that he looked himself when he was sleeping, he wasn't trying to be some big tough guy that has to be scary all the time. He looked innocent. I put my head on the pillow and just stared at him for a while. Fuck I loved this bitch. How had I let myself fall this much for him. Godammit, I really am in deep. 

I didn't even realise it happen but my eyes slowly started to shut and I drifted to sleep listeneing to the sound of his steady breaths. 

~In dream state~ 

The room was blurry almost like it was foggy, the walls were swirling as if I was high. My heart was racing. Where was I? The room was so dark I could hardly make out anything. I tried to call out but my mouth wouldn't open. I tried to move but suddenly I was tied up. I thrashed about on the floor trying to get out. I screamed but no sound came out of my mouth. The walls were jumping in, getting smaller and smaller, every time with a thunder like bang. Then I  heard it, it was a distorted laugh, seemingly coming from the roof. I knew the laugh, I started thrashing about harder but the more I tried the tighter the ropes got until I was stuck. A huge chilling version of a man was standing over me, this thing was at least 8ft tall. All I could hear was the laugh, echoing all around me. Almost too loud to bear. I whipped my head around trying to make it stop. "Cat got your tongue?" The man laughed, I realised then that it was a wicked version of Rossi. I screamed as loud as my body would allow but still nothing came out. The man laughed so loud as if watching me struggle was the funniest thing he ever saw. His eyes went dark he leant down to my face giving me a disturbingly close view of him. I closed my eyes trying to shut it out, the laughing continued. I opened them, relieved to find he was there anymore, I settled down. It was over I thought. Then the booming came again and the walls began to enclose in on me again, I heard he laughing again. The walls were now only a metre away. The booming was deafening. I jerked my arms so hard away that it hurt. Thunder. The walls were so close I couldn't breathe. Thunder. The walls were touching my feet. Thunder. I was gone. 

I shot up. Gasping. My heart. Was I having a heart attack? It was pitch dark, wait there is a face in front of me. I screamed. It was Rossi. 

"Hey, ( y/n) Its okay, it was just a dream." no its Oscar. Okay. Just a dream. I was still gasping for air. He wrapped his arms around me, I pushed him off. It was too enclosed in here. I had to get away. I had to leave. I left. 

He followed. I sat outside trying to calm down my brain. I put my head in my hands. Shit. My head is fuked up. Oscar came with water which was very much appreciated. I was a bit calmer now but my heart rate refused to drop. 

"Sorry." I apologized to Oscar. 

"You dont need to be sorry for anything baby." I was so grateful for him. I smiled. "You  wanna talk about your dream?" He asked rubbing my back. I took a big breath. 

"I think it would help you get over all this shit." 

"Yeah okay." I stayed silent for a second building up the courage to speak about it. I know, it's just a dream right? No. not for me. Because that is the same laugh I heard when I was getting jumped. The same room that trapped me lying in my own blood. 

"I was in a room.. well the room at the Prophets with the plastic. At first I didn't know where I was, the walls were moving and it was dark and foggy. I tried to shout but I couldn't open my mouth. Then i tried to get up but I was tied up... It was so loud, the banging. The walls started to get small." I took a few breaths, the sun was coming up. In different circumstances I would have commented on how beautiful it was. Oscar was looking at me with tears in his eyes. I wish he didn't get so upset about me because that just ended up making me more upset. "Then the laughing started and Rossi, but a huge version, and really fucked up. Like he looked like a moster out of a horror movie. Like a demon or something... Anyway he just kept laughing at me, really loud. I was screaming so much but all I could hear was that fucking laugh. Then he left and the thunder started again and the walls came in so fast. They were touching me. And then I woke up." I felt a single tear trickle down my face. I stared blankly forward. 

"I'm so sorry mamas. If it helps any just know that the nightmares do stop, eventually. Listen I'm never gonna let anything happen to you ever again. You hear me?" He tilted my head towards him. "You're safe, I will never let those bitches hurt you ever again and I mean it. I will have you protected at all times." 

"I know I shouldn't be scared but I cant help it." 

"Its okay mi amor." He said. I leaned into him and he stroked my head. 

"Shit i must be an expert hair washer because your hair feels so nice right now." He said, I laughed a little. 

"Surprising since you don't have any." I teased 

"damn. You still on about my hair." 

"I just dont see why you purposely have it shaved when you will be bald in a few years. You should make the most-" 

"Did you just say bald? in a few years?!" He exclaimed. I cracked up, this boy.

"Well you never know." 

"Por favor Dios, don't make me bald before I'm thirty." He said kissing his hand and touching his chest. 

"Well maybe not that soon but still. You should make the most of it." I smiled at him. I yawned out of nowhere, oh yeah I'd only had like two hours sleep.

"Lets go back to bed, we've got no where to be today." 

"sounds good." 

"If Rossi comes into your dreams tell him I'm gonna fuck him up." 

"Alright baby," I smiled

I fell asleep in Oscars arms, and it was the best sleep I'd had for months.

W/n

Fuck me that is the worst chapter yet. Seriously tell me why anyone reads this please. Also I have got extreme writers block right now. That's why it took me so long to get those chapters out. But we here now. I don't know where this story is going but I feel like its just a bit bland, Where the flavour? Nowhere. but I'm trying. If anyone wants something featured just comment of message me. I will be open to anything. I mean as long as it isn't like really weird. 

I will probably be posting a few more chapters soon as well. So yeah. As long as my motivation lasts.