Jimin FF SoulMates

Chapter Ten: Crush?

I sat there silent from the story, everything made sense.  Well there were things I didn’t know yet but I’ll probably find that out soon.  After he was done talking, he took a deep breath and laughed.

“Wow, that was a lot.” He said trying to sound funny but to be honest he sounded kind of sad?  Maybe it was a hard topic to talk about?  I sigh and intertwine our fingers together making him flinch.  He stares at me for a couple of seconds not saying anything until a smile crept onto his face.

               He looked down at the ground still smiling.
“You know when you smile like that you look like a fucking creep.” I voice teasingly as he frowns.

“That’s mean~” He released my hand and pouted.  I giggled slightly as I saw him avoiding looking at me with his hands across his chest.

“Jimin~” I said his name but he didn’t look at me, making me laugh.  This guy is literally a baby!  I grab one of his arms to pull away from his chest but he doesn’t budge.

             “Chim Chim~” I whined his name until I saw a smirk creep on his face.  He faces his whole body to me and pins me on the ground.

“Chim Chim?” He teased, raising an eyebrow.  I frowned before becoming shocked.  My eyes widened and I stared up at him who was looking at me curiously.
“Uh no, I said Jimin!” I voiced before mentally slapping myself.  He just smiles at me warmly and I avoided his gaze and slightly blush.

                Did I want to blush?  Hell no!  Did it happen?  Sadly yes…..
“Awww my god Lily!  You’re blushing!” He stood up and started jumping up and down doing a little jig.  “She was blushing!  She was blushing!”  He chanted like a little kid.

                      What the heck?
“I didn’t blush so stop dancing and shouting like that before someone sees you!” I yelled grabbing his arm to make him sit back down.
“Hmmm?  You shy huh?  No one is up here we’re on the roof baby.” He voiced staring into my eyes and pulling my chin closer to his face using his finger.  Oh yeah, I forgot we were on the roof…..  I looked down again still avoiding his gaze but more importantly him.

                   “Lily.” I heard him say softly.  I slowly looked up to him and his eyes were bright pink.  Wow, this is something I would never picture myself to be in right now.  This situation is so weird and new, so different.  I don’t know how to feel about it or what to do?  He interrupted my thoughts, “Lily, am I allowed to kiss you?” He asked bravely as his eyes were burning me alive.  Even though I was definitely the shy one at this moment, he still had a tiny blush on his face too.

                   Kiss him?  No, I-I don’t like him.  At most friends but I wasn’t even meant to get close to him.  I made a promise and I know he told me to stop blaming myself and that I’m too aloof but what do I do?  What can I do?  That is just the way I am.  I'm a lone wolf who will never have friends, no one close to her.

                      It sounds funny in my head when I said I was a lone wolf considering he’s ACTUALLY a werewolf.
“Lily?” I heard Jimin’s voice break through my thoughts again.
“No,” I said, scooting away from him and looking in another direction.  He still stared at me and though I couldn’t see him, I just knew he was doing the puppy dog eyes.  Intentionally, no, but he does that when he’s sad.  Suddenly a thought popped into my head.  We have been up here for so long, probably even missed one of our periods.

I stand up from the ground and look down at him.  His eyes… were a deep shade of grey.
“Jimin we have been up here for so long that we have missed a period already so we should go before we miss anymore.” I said in my normal tone.  He didn’t move or say anything.  I felt a sharp pain through my heart but I decided to ignore it.  “Well I’ll head down.”  I voiced and turned away from him when I felt warm arms wrap around me.
“I’m sorry.” He whispered ruefully.

                 I was about to turn my head to look at him until I felt a soft gentle kiss on the base of my neck.  He-he….. Some heat rose to my cheeks.  I removed his arms and quickly rushed down the many stairs.  After heading down I rubbed my cheeks and took a big sigh.  It’ll be alright Lily.  Just then I saw people exiting the classrooms, I guess they were switching periods again.  I look at the clock on the wall and realize that there is only one period left, wow!

                We were up there for quite a while.  Last period of the day right?  I guess I can finish that, go home and rest.  I heard footsteps behind me causing me to think it's Jimin and making me take a bolt to my last period.  Gosh, why am I doing this?  Wait…..I know why I'm doing this…. it's-it's because I'm a loner.  I stood still and thought about that for a second, was that a good reason to completely run away and ignore Jimin, after he told me his past, his trauma?

No, that's not a good reason at all.  We agreed to be friends, I agreed, but mostly importantly I agreed to not blame myself.  That's a hard thing to do, in fact it won't happen over a single night, I still think that what happened to dad had to have-…..gosh…..if I didn't yell….then?  I shook my head and gave a sigh, I don't what to think about that now I'm at school!  If that isn't the reason for my avoidance of Jimin…..then what is?  I already get the fact that I'm an introvert but that doesn't mean that I'd run off blushing like that, wait…...blushing, holy shit!  I'm an idiot!

Oh no, no, this has happened before, I'm not stupid! Gosh, it's not love, too freaking soon to be love, I must…..like him?  My cheeks instantly heated up just at the thought of it!  I'm right aren't I?  I have a crush on Park freaking Jimin!