a skaters secret

Part 15-im on my way

I woke up tangled in the mess that was Toorus legs and lifted myself to look at the time. 8:17am. Now seemed like a good time to get up, even if i was super comfortable. i gave Tooru a peck on the cheek and shifted, snaking my way out from under the covers. i noticed Hajime wasn't in bed so he'd probably already gotten up and gone for breakfast. grabbing one of my shopping bags, i snuck into the bathroom and put on the grey skirt with a cute cropped hoodie and gave myself a twirl before exiting.

i walked over to the bed to find Tooru still fast asleep, so i gave him another peck and then screamed "TOORU HELP". he shot up fast frantically searching the room until he found me stood next to him laughing my ass of. "what? whats wrong?!" i continued to laugh barely breathing out a "n-nothing, you just, w-wouldn't wake up!" he gave me a disapproving look before throwing off the covers and standing up, taking some time to stretch his back. "you're mean" he pouted grabbing some clothes and pulling them on. it was only then that i realised he had fallen asleep in just his boxers. and i had slept cuddled next to him, with him just in his boxers. the though made my face flush but i calmed myself down by the time he was dressed.

"i really should get going, they'll be worried about me" i complained as we picked up the room a little bit. "all your clothes are back in those bags, including your phone wallet and keys, you can go whenever" he yawned moving my shopping bags to beside the door. "well lets go say goodbye then, ill see you at the point scorer but i wont see them till later on and i wanna thank them" he nodded and grabbed one of my bags helping me out to the communal area where everyone was waiting.

"hey guys, sorry about yesterday but i had fun and hopefully i can see you again even if were on opposite teams!" i bowed slightly and smiled walking over to the third years. "hey Hinata, you should visit us in the gym sometimes, its not fair to only see each other at games!" "yeah, plus Oikawa has a huge crush on you so we should hang out more" we talked a little more, i ended up with the whole teams numbers, even kindaichi's, before tooru agreed to walk me back.

my inn really wasn't far and before i knew it we gave a swift hug and peck on the cheek and exchanged goodbyes. i waved as i watched him walk off, now holding one more shopping bag, before turning around to walk inside. i was immediately greeted by Suga and Noya who seemed to be arguing about something and Daichi sharing a conversation with Asahi. Kageyama was sat on his phone being silent and no one else had come out yet. i almost cracked a smile before remembering the phone call the night before and that happy feeling left.

"so, Hinata. enjoy your date?" i simply hummed walking further into the room, dropping my bags and making my way towards the tables. "what's wrong, was the guy a dick? something happened. give me his name i need to beat his ass" Suga ranted at me. "no" is all i said before looking at my lap feeling the familiar sting of tears flood to my eyes. "no? baby what happened? is this why you didn't come home?" i nodded and he pulled me into his chest where i began to sob, shaking violently. "do you wanna tell us what's wrong?" you couldn't see it but I'm sure he felt me nod as he released his grip.

there were nods from everyone as they directed their attention to me "at the e-end of my d-date i -hic- got a p-phone call from the Miyagi h-hospital... my mum and s-sister got ina car c-cr-crash on their way here and got hurt, they're unconscious but i c-cant v-visit until camps over" i took a deep breath before sobbing again. I received some sympathetic words and hugs but i didn't feel like it so i stood up to retrieve my bags and head to my room. "who knew Hinata would look so good in a skirt?!" Noya called out. "thanks" i murmured walking my way to my room.

*trigger warning*

i went straight to my closest packing up my costume and skates, throwing them in a duffle bag along with a change of clothes so i could wear something different on the way home as to be not be recognised. While in there i also unpacked the clothes i had bought with Tooru. I had a lot of time left to spare and so decided to try and calm my nerves by taking a shower. I hadn't realised i was literally shaking until i stepped out and looked in the mirror. my thoughts were going wild telling me "you're worthless" "you're gonna fail so hard today" "you're definitely getting in last, why even compete?" "Tooru would never like you" "cut" "cut" "cut!"

i had to do what it told me to if i wanted to calm down and so i grabbed the blade i liked the most, which i had taped to the inside roof of the cabinet. feeling around for it i accidentally pricked my finger but that showed me where it was. peeling it off i grabbed it with my wavering hand and brought it to my wrist. before making a cut however, the thought of my disappointed parents flashed through my mind and i decided to do my thighs so they wouldn't see.

it felt like i blacked out when suddenly i became aware of what i was doing and felt horrified that id betrayed my dads and grabbed my phone. my thumb hovered over pops but i knew they'd hate me and i couldn't bear to look at them. i could bandage them myself but if i didn't calm down id probably keep going, so i did the only thing i could think- call Tooru

calling "boyfriend-to-be"

-sho-chan you ok?

-*sniffle* yeah, i just wanted to t-talk

-you don't sound ok, do i need to come over?

-*clink* shit n-no please don't *sniffle*

-shoyo you didn't?- I'm coming over leave your bathroom unlocked!

-o-ok.

call ended

after the call ended i unlocked the door but kept it closed, silently sobbing into my hands. that was until i heard a familiar voice on the other side of the door. "Sho-chan? I'm coming in alright?" i heard him lock my bedroom door and then make his way towards me, slowly turning the handle and opening the door leaving me exposed to him. hearing him gasp only made it worse as i broke down further. Warm arms embraced me in a hug which i melted into, inhaling his scent as a calming method which slowly helped stop the flow of tears. "do you have any bandages? i want to clean you up a bit, ok" i nodded and pointed to the cabinet, the same one i hid my blades in, and he pulled out a first aid kit filled with bandages and things to stop infection with.

Without a word he began cleaning each individual cut and wrapping up both my thighs and then cleaning up the mess on the floor and the blade, all while i just sat and watched with a distant look in my eyes. when he was finished he picked my up off the floor, to which i snuggled into his chest, and then place the two of us under the covers, holding me close.

he grabbed the remote and asked me what i wanted to watch, obviously I responded with the seven deadly sins, since it was such a good anime and it never failed to cheer me up. He had never seen it so we played episode one and started watching. i didn't have the strength to hold a conversation but i made a few statements before i ended up falling asleep on him. he looked down at me and gave a small frown thinking about what had occurred, but he decided to let me sleep and ask questions later.