𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐘𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙣

𝙫𝙞𝙤𝙡𝙚𝙩'𝙨 𝙥𝙤𝙫

my heart sunk. it felt as though i had escaped reality and i was just sitting, alone, in the dark. i couldn't hear griffin talking anymore, i couldn't hear daniel yelling, i heard silence. i didn't even know that i was crying until i tasted my tears as they traveled from my eye, down my cheek, and to my lips.

oxygen had been striped from my lungs, all the pain had settle in like an elephant had sat on me and i couldn't breathe. all i heard in my head was griffin's broken and pained voice saying jaden had been in a car accident.

my mind snapped back to reality when i heard griffin calling my name repeatedly. he told me what hospital to meet him at and i quickly said i would be there before hanging up the phone.

"what?" daniel snapped as i put the phone in my pocket and grabbed my keys i had left.

"i need to go, don't call" i said, grabbing my bag before heading to the door.

"you'll regret that you whore!" daniel yelled at me.

"fuck off" i muttered before slamming the door.

i got into my car after placing my bags in the trunk. i broke. tears streamed rapidly down my face and i began to hyperventilate. my world fell like it had collapsed.

if only i had stayed. or told jaden where i was. or taken him with me. or not lied to him. this was my fault. jaden might die or already be dead, because of me.

i shook my head of my thoughts, turning in the car before carefully pulling out of the parking lot, and merging into the street.

i made my way to the freeway, driving as fast as i could and as safely as i could. as i glanced over at the exit that you would take to get to daniel's, my eyes began to pour out tears.

a semi was blocking about 3 lanes and a car, jaden's car, had it's entire front end crushed in and it was flipped. the paramedics on the scene had a person on a gurney, covered with a sheet. as i drove past it, slowly due to the traffic, my heart felt as if someone was crushing it.

"that wasn't jaden" i told myself. "he's at the hospital getting taken care of. he's going to be fine"

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after hours of traffic, i made it to the hospital. i ran into the emergency room immediately seeing griffin, bryce, and anthony all in the waiting room.

griffin looked up, seeing me and ran to me. i ran into arms and collapsed into a puddle of tears.

"hey, hey, he's gonna be okay" griffin said soothing me.

"it's my fault" i cried into his shirt. "he was looking for me, wasn't he?"

"don't worry about that right now" he said, sitting me down with the others.

i looked over at anthony, seeing the dried tears on his face. i went over and hugged him and he began to softly cry with me.

"i broke the promise, i told them that you had my phone. we were just trying to look for you" he mumbling into my shoulder.

"it's okay ant" i said back, hugging him harder.

"i didn't wake up until after he was gone, we tried to call him but only got his voice mail" he said crying even more now.

"ant it's okay you did everything you could" i said, before handing him his phone.

he laughed a little, taking it back.

we waited in the waiting room for another 2 hours, replaying everything that had happened since i moved to la to now. i picked at every time i did something wrong, every time i lied, every time i wish i did something different.

"jaden hossler?" a nurse called, causing the four of us to immediately all stand.

the lady looked at all of us, slightly confused.

"i need a relative of his to talk to, i'm sorry" she said, looking at her clipboard.

"i called his parents, they're in their way" bryce said, wiping his eyes.

"i'm sorry it's regulation, is there anyone else, maybe a significant other?" she asked.

"i-i'm his girlfriend" i said, choking on my words a little.

the rest of the boys went back and sat down as the nurse led me over to the information desk.

"he sustained quite a few injuries, broken ribs, lacerations on the cheek, chest, arms, and legs, two fractures in his left arm, major blood loss, as well as more. but, he's a lucky man. the surgeries all were successful, and he's now in recovery. he should wake up in a few hours" she said, looking up and smiling at me a little.

"c-can i see him?" i asked.

"he's still asleep, but you may see him" she said, leading me back to his room.

when she opened the door, i saw jaden laying in the bed, pale, lifeless, and injuries all over me his body.

"oh my god" i said before tears began to fall again.

i rushed to his side looking at him, praying he would open his eyes and talk to me, tell me he would be okay.

"i'll give you a minute" the nurse said, before leaving the room.

i placed my hand on jaden's cheek, pulling it back quickly in shock. his skin was cold and pale, minus the stitches that had closed the cut on his cheek bone. there were cuts in his right arm too, all stitched up, while the other one was covered in a cast. he looked fragile, like one wrong move and he would break in half.

"jaden?" i whispered, hoping that would rn one some sort of reaction. alas, it didn't.

"uh, bryce called your parents, and they should be here in a few hours" i said, thinking he might be able to hear me.

"i-i'm sorry i left this morning, i had some stuff to get and i knew you would just try to come with me" i laughed a little, gripping his cold hand lightly.

"i didn't- i didn't think that this would happen. i though my i would be home before you woke up. and then we could talk about... us" i said, sniffling.

he didn't look like himself. he looked like a fake stuffed doll. his chest was raising and falling as he breathed but otherwise he was motionless.

"i'm not sure if you can even hear me but, this will be easier i guess if i don't know. jaden, i-i love you. i love you so damn much. i'm sorry i left. i'm sorry i lied abou us to griffin. i'm sorry i said i hate you. i don't hate you. i love you. i love you, jaden" i confessed, breathing a sigh of relief, finally telling him, unconscious him but still.

"okay, i'm gonna go now, maybe one of the other boys will come and talk to you" i said, getting up from my seat next to his bed.

i crossed to the door before looking back at him. "i love you"

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hey babies😘 so i'm getting EXTREMELY busy with cheer atm (bc ya girl tryna be a captain) so the updates will be coming slower, probably like once a week.

i never planned on writing a super super long book bc i usually get bored, but i've had the entire plot line figured out since like february lmao

also i got nails again so it's gonna be kinda hard to write until i get used to them again

okay that's all from meeee
love you all<3