TWO EUPHORIC HEARTS ✓

sixteen: make it right

sixteen: make it right

"This eternal night with no end in sight. It's you who gifted me the morning. Now is it ok if I can hold that hand?"

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it's past midnight.

Elianna likes this time of the day the most. she strives and drowns in it. the night welcomes her just as her tattoos and the love from her friends embrace her. somehow, she always finds herself feeling everything and talking the most when the night settles.

Jungkook was overjoyed when Elianna knocked on his door. he was speechless, uh's leaving his lips before he grabbed his jacket and walked with her. he was extremely surprised that she wanted to talk things out.

they made their way outside, to the patio garden. Jungkook has his leather jacket, jumper underneath as he sits at a distance. Elianna has a blanket wrapped over her shoulders as they sit side by side, knees tucked.

Elianna fiddles with the silver rings on her fingers as she tries to think about what to say. there are so many questions and answers yet the words die on her usually outspoken tongue. the patio lights allow them to see each other but they don't dare to. Jungkook is the only one who takes occasional glances, licking his lips in nervousness.

"why did you leave?"

Elianna can't process the fact that everything is happening right now. a part of her never thought this conversation would come. but she's glad it has, she's waited for so long. years have passed and now that she's outside, alone with her ex-lover is alarming. she asks the question of most importance.

"so we're jumping right into it then." Jungkook chuckles lowly. he shakes his head, black bangs bouncing as his eyes crease. Elianna's lips twitch, trying not to smile at his smile. even in their darkest and overwhelming moments, he shines the brightest. it leaves her wondering what they could've been if he hadn't left... she misses him.

"we have to." Elianna gulps harshly. her black hair lies above the blanket as she looks up at the sky. she'd much rather look at the stars in Jungkook's eyes. wait what? stop, no. "i want to skip to the part where we actually talk. we've had small talk for years, even silence so let's do this right shall we?"

"okay you're right." Jungkook nods, agreeing. "so why did i leave?" he repeats to himself as he taps his fingers against his sweatpants. in this moment, none of his rehearsed words go to plan. instead he speaks from his heart that he knows belongs to one person only. "can i just say that it hurt me just as much as it hurt you. leaving you was the worst decision of my life and i'll never forget it. i did you wrong." he clears his throat.

"it hurt us both i know." Elianna says quietly, staring ahead. she's had enough of being angry, now she wants to listen and speak like civil adults. her anger and stubbornness has usually worsen situations, instead of making them better. so now she'd like to use her changed mindset and attitude she's developed in the past years for good, with someone good.

"i left because i felt like i had to go through with Yoongi's words." Jungkook answers honestly.

Elianna already knew the answer but had never heard it out loud. ever since he left, they never talked about it. she wonders how things could've been different if they talked about it earlier in their lives. "was he that controlling with you that you had to listen?"

"you loved me right?" Elianna questions, bold voice shooting goosebumps up Jungkook's sleeves. "so why was it so easy for you to leave?" her voice breaks in the space.

"i didn't want to hurt you anymore that's why i didn't stay." Jungkook says, eyes blinking. "i never felt like i was good enough for you." his vulnerability after all these years may have decreased but it's still there.