"Yesterday was great." Daniel nudges.
I turn to him, "Let's get something straight. I like you, you like me, but it isn't a good time."
"When will it be Mac?" He asks sounding genuine.
"Dan, you're serious?" I ask.
He furrows his eyebrows, "Yeah, you're not?" He asks.
"No! I am, it's just.... I'm scared." I say.
He shakes his head, looking disappointed, "Fine."
I grab his wrist, "Please."
"I've waited, you're so great, but you keep saying it's not a good time, when will it be?" He asks.
A wave of sadness washes over me, "Daniel."
"You let me know, until then, stay away." He says walking to his house.
I watch as he slams the door. He was right. I'm afraid of commitment, but he doesn't find me worth the wait?
"What happened?" Mom asks behind me.
I turn to her as tear prick my eyes, "Daniel, I don't know." I breathe.
"Honey, you like him." She says smiling sympathetically.
"I know." I cry out.
"What happened?" She asks again.
"I can't decide." I rub my eyes.
"What can't you decide?" She asks.
"If I want to be with him, I do but.... if it doesn't work when things are just beginning to get better." I trail off.
She places her hand on my shoulder, "Honey, he likes you a lot, if you want it, go for it."
"How do I know I won't mess it up?" I ask.
She looks into my eyes with a warm smile, "You won't, you just have to have faith."
"Bu-"
"Just listen, if you weigh your options and find that you think it'd be good for you, then go for it." She says.
I nod while wiping my eyes. Daniel has done so much for me, he makes me happy. Though every relationship has fights, I think I want it. I just need time, if he'd even wait for me. I've already made him wait so long.
"Thanks." I say walking to my room.
Sitting on my bed I close my eyes. If I go into it, he and I will be happy. We'll benefit each other and thrive. All that's blocking me, is my negative emotions and thoughts. 'What ifs' are filling the wholes that should be positive things.
I need to stay away from him for a few days and challenge myself. If I want him as bad as I think I need to prove it to myself. I might actually love the idiot next door. What if he doesn't feel the same? Ugh. Shut up!
My mom walks in with smile and I return it to her.
"Okay?" She asks.
I nod, "Yeah, I'm going to give it a few days."
"Okay, be strong and think hard." She says.
"How do you know I like him?" I ask.
"You love him and he loves you, it's obvious, I see the way you look at each other." She explains, "You just have to decide if it's what you want right now."
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