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Chapter 18 ✔️

I awoke, with guilt flooding through me. I felt terrible for leaving Seongwoo without telling him. I couldn't explain to him why I was unable to come, he wouldn't understand. I didn't have to work today, but I still wanted to see if he would be there. I needed to see him; I couldn't explain why. It wasn't just the fact that I wanted to apologize to him, it was something else as well, but I didn't know what.

As I walked towards the cafe, I kept an eye out for him, trying to see if I could spot him anywhere. When I reached the cafe, I looked to see if he was at his usual table. It was empty. That was strange, he was usually there at this time of day, even when I wasn't working. 

I asked Hyunjin if Seongwoo came in today. "Who?"

"Tall, brown hair. He always sits on the that table." I told him as I pointed to Seongwoo's table. "He talks to me most of the time, I'm sure you've seen him before."

"No he hasn't come in today. Sorry."

My heart dropped, but I tried to smile and thanked Hyunjin. I wondered around, not knowing what to do. I wanted to find Seongwoo, I needed to apologize for yesterday. But how was I meant to do that when I couldn't even find him? I had to try harder. I had to find him. I thought of all the places he could be, and I realized I didn't know many. But there was one place I did know. The place he stayed at, the place where I had my dance lessons. Filled with hope, I made my way towards his base. It was a long shot, but I had to do something.

I came across the street that was now so familiar to me. It was empty as usual, and there was no way of telling that Seongwoo was home. I hesitantly knocked on the door, waiting for a response. For a few seconds there was nothing. I knocked once again, and I was about to leave when the door opened. Seongwoo stood in the doorway, his hair messy as if he had just gotten out of bed. I blushed slightly, and smiled at him. He didn't return the gesture, and just walked back inside. The door was open, so I figured that meant I was welcome inside. He seemed a bit off if anything and it troubled me. Was he upset that I didn't show up?

"What brings you here?" He said whilst sitting on his bed. I was right; he had just woken up. I took a moment before saying, "I was looking for you. You didn't come to the cafe, so I thought I'd check if you were here." I looked at him, but he didn't say anything. I was unsure of what to do next. Normally he would say something at this point, but today he was just.. quiet.

"I wanted to apologize for not coming yesterday." I decided to tell him straight out. Even if he was upset about it, hopefully my explanation could sort things out. "I was going to come, when something came up... I didn't have any way to tell you that I couldn't come so-"

"What are you talking about?" His question threw me. Did he forget that he had asked me to meet him? That would be impossible, he had reminded me to be there, why would he forget himself?

"You told me to meet you yesterday evening remember? But I couldn't come."

"Meet you? Why?" All of a sudden I had goosebumps. Was he purposely behaving like he forgot? The way he spoke was so similar to the way he spoke to me when we first met: cold and harsh. I didn't like it at all. He must have been really upset that I couldn't make it.

"I don't know why. You said you had a surprise for me. Seongwoo, please. You know what I'm talking about, can you not act like this?"

"I don't remember anything like that."

My eyes searched his face, but it was blank. Did he truly not remember? Or was he just playing mind games with me?

"Seongwoo, do you really not remember?" My mind was confused. How could he not remember?? It was driving my mind apart.