Always, It's You

ME

A total offtopic. You can skip if you are not interested.

I am overwhelmed with all of your support guys, thank you for all the love you showed me.

Days are hard now, and I am not getting any better. And it was quite scary with a deteriorating health day by day, but I am trying to stay strong and positive.

I am writing here cause I have lost one of my friends a few days before, and I wish I could be there for him when he was in his darkest time. I had no idea what he was going through and I can not but feel guilty.

So I am telling you guys, if any of you have ever felt lonely, down, depressed, you can tell me... I am here to hear you. We are strangers here, maybe we won't know each other's names even......but I am telling you, I won't judge you a bit, just know that I am here to hear you out. Maybe you don't know, but I am a pretty good listener.
Just reach out. Reach out to your family, loved ones, or anyone else. Don't just go. You are important. To me, to everyone.

I am writing here, cause I am also feeling the dark, I am scared. I again started to write so that I can ignore the white curtains, smells of disinfectants, masks and gloves, and stethoscopes.

Some of you asked me to say something about myself. Alright, I thought it's ok to introduce myself a bit.

Ok, I am a med student. Still learning.
A girl from Finland.
Learned about BTS through an interactive art course and gained a lot of respect for them after breaking down the prejudice against kpop not long ago.

English is not my first language, so the story is so so and with plenty of funny mistakes and I know it.

Besides my study, I learned classical music from an early age. I can play the piano and violins. But I can assure you that my musical skill is mediocre.😄😄😄😄😄
I love arts and classics. Liszt is my favorite and the Hungarian rhapsody series is one of my all-time favorite pieces.
I love Dostoevsky and Tolstoy.

I love to paint though I don't have any training but I am a trained photographer. But it has been a while i went out in the area where i born, in the small town in the biggest tundra forrest you will ever seen and just you know, capture pictures!

Life really has turned upside down for me for last couple of years  when i enrolled for the med school.
It is scary to loose passion.

I dreamt about being a writer, painter, linguist (apparently i thought Klingon is an actual language😅😅😅😅)
but never being a doctor. But here I am!!😄😄😄😄😄

I am a movie and TV series geek, Believe me when I say I have watched all of the famous shows. 😆😅😅

I am a huge fan of alternate rock and ballads and Marvel movies. I loved harry potter, game of thrones (which turned out to be a shit show btw) and love Sheldon Cooper with all my heart. If you know you know 😍😍

As i live in a nordic country, ice skating is in my blood and if you want me to pick just one person in the whole world as my love, i'd say, The GOAT, Yuzuru Hanyu. You heard of him? If not, you are missing out the greatest athlete in the rink who exudes arts and poetry on the ice. I freaking worship him 😍😍😍😍😍

and I am a huge huge huge fan of film making and production.....did my second major on film and videography at my highschool ( i know i was a nerd🙂🙂)

who knows, maybe one day you would be seeing me as a film director🤣🤣🤣🤣

I wouldn't imagine writing here before, but since the time I started to volunteer at the hospital, I was staying in isolation away from my family, I didn't have any books around, I don't like reading pdf books which I cant touch or smell,
I didn't have anything to write down, passing the time of a reader's block and viewer's block at the same time with lots of times to kill.

So I was continuously watching BTS's songs and everything on youtube and apparently lost a bet to my friend, and this penalty came to me to write my gibberish story down here.

So that's me.
Now you know me a little better.Dont you?

Stay fine. Stay safe.