Mine. Luke hemmings fanfic.

Chapter 9

A/N listen to hanging tree from the hunger games while reading

Lilly's P.O.V.
I sat with my head on the window tears silently rolling down my cheeks. Staring at the clouds below. Moving slowly. A sharp pain of worry in my stomach. Bracelets digging tight into my scarred flesh. Suddenly it all goes black and it feels nice. Then the trauma of waking up. I get into a cab and tell him where I need to be. The hospital where Luke lies asleep.

I pass a woman, presumably his mom, crying in the hallway. Ashton walks me into his room. He is laying there asleep. Hes been asleep for two days. And I've been awake for two. He has wires hooked up to him, I count four, I don't know what they are but they're there. And finally my eyes trail down to his arms. They are perpendicular to mine. They go down, not across. He did this purposely. Tears start up again. I take his hand and sit on the chair next to him.

Doctors walk in countless times, So do Ash, Calum, Mike, and Luke's mom. I must have fallen asleep in the chair a few times because One second there was light in the window the next it was dark.

"Lilly, we should go home, you need to sleep, you can come back tomorrow morning" Ashton grabs my hand and I nod back, letting go of Luke, I place a kiss onto his forehead, and we go back to their apartment. I sleep in Lukes bed. His smell is strong here, unlike the hoodie I'm currently wearing.

Luke's P.O.V.
I wake up... I wake up. I wake up!!! I wake up? How? I feel someone's soft touch on my hand and it then lift away.  I haven't opened my eyes I'm too scared to. I hear three familiar voice leave but I decide to keep my eyes closed for another bit. Beep. Beep. Beep. Am I dead? Is this what death is? I open my eyes and no one is here. I look next to me and there is no one is there. I sit up and some one rushes into the room. I recognise her smell before I recognise her face. It's mom, she going to be so disappointed I think. Instead she smothers me in an embrace. 

"Mom" I croak. How long has it been? Is this just a dream? No it couldn't be. Its a nightmare. Everyone hates me, except mom. That's why they're not here

"Lukey, never scare me like that again." Shes hoarse too. Now my shoulder is wet. Shes crying. I reach my arms out to hug her but instead I tug at the IV hooked up to my hand and its hurts like a bitch. Actually my whole left arm just hurts. I look down at it and see the, thick, blood stained bandage.

"Your friends were here. They had to go home about two hours ago. The girl, I didn't catch her name, sat with you all day from when she got off her plane till she left." Mom assures me, she can always sense when I'm insecure or worried.

"Lilly. Her name is Lilly, mom. She' Ashtons step-sister." The thought of her sitting with me makes me upset. I've hurt her so much. 

"I think shes more than that" mom laughs a little, her tears have stopped but she continues to stare. She sits in the seat she said Lilly sat in.

"She used to be. I don't know anymore." Tears form in my eyes but I blink them away. A nurse walks in and does a few tests. Takes blood, checks my pupils, my ears, and then she uwraps my bandage to redress it. The room goes silent and she tells me to look away. But I don't. I stare at it for as long as possible. The air stings it but not as much as the wipes she uses to clean it.

Lilly's P.O.V.

Ashton lays on the bed next to me. 

"Couldn't sleep?" he whispers I assume because Calum and Michael are asleep. I nod.

"Yeah me too. It's just not an image I can get out of my head. Well I have good news. Hes awake. His mom rang me twenty minutes ago. Do you want to go see him" Ash sounds as if a weight has been lifted off his shoulders. I nod and I start to tear up again. He pulls me into a bearhug.

I get dressed, Well kinda. I leave the hoodie on and just put on some jeans and don't even fix my hair. Its been in the same bun for three days. I put some mascara, concealer and a tinted lip balm on. 

We get a taxi over to the hospital but we can't go into him straight away because the doctor is talking to him and his mom. I fiddle with the chewed strings of the hoodie. Ash grabs my hand and squeezes it. I look up at him and give him a quick but fake smile. I'm not happy, my boyfriend? I don't know what he is, just tried to kill himself. 

"You can go in now" A tall doctor with red hair and a long white coat over her navy scrubs tells us. A wave of anxiety hits me and Ash notices.

"Its only Luke, but if you want we can wait for a few minutes" 'I shake my head. Luke's mom leave the room, smiling. Unlike she was last night.

"Hey Liz" Ash stands up and gives her a hug. "This is my sister Lilly" I give a little wave, nervously, this isn't exactly the best was to meet your, boyfriend or whatever's mom.

"Hi Lilly" She gives me a quick hug then excuses herself and goes to get food. I wait outside for another while, and Ash goes in to talk to Luke. Calum and Michael arrive but don't stay with me, they too go into him.

"Hes asking for you," Calum walks out of the room followed by Ash and Michael.