Second Chance Serenade - JK FF ✔

So Far Away

Flashback

I stormed in the apartment I shared with Jay, slamming the door behind us.

"What the hell is your problem?" He turned to face me.

"You were another girl Jay, I saw it!" I screamed back at him.

He scoffed and rolled his eyes. "Well maybe I wouldn't have to find comfort in someone else if you were ever here."

"What the hell!? We are always together! We live together and work together."

"I meant mentally here, with me. You are always thinking about him." He glared at me. My heart stopped and I was on the verge of tears.

"Don't you dare bring him into this!"

"He has everything to do with this! I never fully have you with me." He started to walk away, but I was fast on his heels.

"I lost him Jay! I didn't choose to leave him!" He finally stopped and turned around.

"I am not his replacement Riley! I am not him! I want you to be with me and only me. I can't sit around and wait for you to forget about him." He came closer to me.

"I don't want to forget about him." I said in a more calm tone. He ran his hand through his hair and turned around before facing me again.

"So, you picture him when you are with me?" He asked. I was shocked at his question.

"What? No!"

"Do you even want me Riley?" He came closer to me and I felt bad for everything I had done. This was all my fault! I had pushed him into the arms of so many women.

"Of course I do." I said. He reached up out his hand and grabbed my arm, pulling me closer to me. He brushed my hair behind my shoulder as his fingers touched my neck and his thumb rested below my ear. He brought his face right in front of mine.

"Prove it to me." He pushed his lips against mine. His arm snaked around my waist as he pressed his body against mine. His lips traveled down to my neck as he sucked on my skin.

"Jay, I really don't want to do this right now." I tried to put a hand on his chest to lightly push him away. He stopped and stared into my eyes.

"You are mine and I can do what I want with you. You owe me this anyway." He kissed me again and started to move his fingers under my shirt. I shut my eyes tight knowing that I could not refuse him when he was like this. I gave in reminding myself that this was all my fault anyway.

Present day

I'm not sure why I woke up remembering a fight that Jay and I had. It was one of the first times he tried to manipulate me to believe that everything was my fault. It took me forever to realize what he was finally doing, but as I began to get ready for work, I started to wonder if I would do the same thing to Jungkook. I couldn't ignore him, I wouldn't, but I wasn't afraid of Jay hurting him again, this time, I was afraid of what I would do. I rubbed my temples and closed my eyes, trying to focus for the day. I reached for the pill bottle once again and realized that I only had a couple let. Before I headed for the studio, I called the doctor who had prescribed them.

"Hello Riley, how can I help you this morning?"

"Hi, I was hoping you could prescribe me a refill for the sedative you gave me?"

"That was for sleep and was supposed to last you a couple more weeks?" I immediately began to get nervous.

"Oh ya, I had it open on my bathroom counter as I was getting ready for bed and accidentally knocked it right into my toilet. They have really been helping me sleep." I closed my eyes hoping he would take my lie.