Second Chance Serenade - JK FF ✔

Spiraling

**As with the theme of this book, this chapter in particular may be triggering for some. Remember that this is all Fiction, but the emotions are very real! If you are struggling, please reach out to someone or even me! Don't let fear consume you.

I was nervous for the meeting this morning and couldn't focus on even making something as simple as toast. The blackened slices popped out of the toaster and I cursed under my breath as I quickly pulled them from the toaster, tossing them into the garbage.

I pulled out my phone and started looking up various headlines and scrolling through twitter to see what damage was done. Articles from websites trying to decipher who the mystery voice is along with breakdowns of the song Sober. People were saying so many things about the idol culture and how my song was promoting addiction and alcohol use. Twitter was no better as I saw post after post about how I manipulated Jungkook and how he must be an alcoholic as he worked with me and I wrote a song about it. I put my head back to keep the tears in my eyes and made a heartbreaking decision. I sent a message to PD so that I could talk to him before the meeting. Thankfully he responded right away and stated he was already at the building if I wanted to meet now. I grabbed my things, forgetting about breakfast and headed to meet him in his office. When I arrived, I knocked on the slightly ajar door.

"Come in." He said as I walked in and closed the door behind me. He looked up and smiled as our eyes met. "Morning Ms. Byrd. What can I help you with?" I sat down in a chair across from his desk.

"Well, I'm sure you have seen what everyone has been saying about the covers Jungkook and Taehyung have put out." He nodded.

"Yes, I am hoping our team can come to a conclusion about this mess. I know you want to remain anonymous so we will not put your name out there just to satisfy some unhappy people."

"And I appreciate that sir, but I don't think this will stop and I don't think it will go away." He looked at me confused. "Most of the team doesn't even know that it's me and I feel terrible being their leader and lying to them."

"Do you want to tell them then?" He asked.

"I think that would be best as Yoongi and Jungkook will be releasing songs with my voice in it again." I paused and took a deep breath, looking at my fingers in my lap. "You have done so much for me and I honestly don't believe I deserve it all. The team has been great in putting all this together and after everything that has happened....I would like to step down as creative director." I said and looked up at him. His eyes went wide and I could tell he was not expecting that.

"You're quitting?" He asked.

"Oh no, I would still like to be a producer, but just a producer. I believe this team needs a better leader."

"And what if I don't agree?" He looked at my sternly.

"Will all do respect sir, I think it would be best for everyone if I take a step back. I still want to be very much a part of this team and I'm willing to help wherever is needed, but having the title of director with everything this is going on..." I didn't need to finish my sentence as he knew what I meant.

"I understand. You have done a great job and I am happy you are still a part of this team. I will leave it to you to reveal the mystery voice at the meeting." I stood up and thanked him for his time and let.

We had about 15 minutes till the PR meeting so I went to the music room and continued to work on the song for Ben. I pulled out my notebook and stared at the words on the page. What I thought would be a love song to my lost love, were words that were more angry and hurt. The guilt seemed to build in me, but these were my thoughts, this was how I was feeling. My fingers pressed on the ivory keys as I tried to make a melody that fit the lyrics. After about ten minutes, I was trying so hard not to just scream and cry out. I quickly dug my hand in my bag pulling out the pill bottle and my water, gulping down two. I picked up my bag and headed to the conference room.