Second Chance Serenade - JK FF ✔

Detox

Riley POV

"I am trying to love you!" Jungkook shouted at me. I froze not knowing what to say. Love? What the hell was that supposed to mean? I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing came out. What was I supposed to say to that? "It's not what you think." Jungkook continued. "Yes, I do have romantic feelings for you as you already know, but the love I'm talking about is like the love I have for my brothers or how Minho feels about you." I started to relax a little. "We all care about you so much and we want to help you, but we can't help if you don't talk to us." He said as he stepped closer to me.

"But that's the thing Jungkook! I care about you all as well and you should be happy and not worry about me all the time. Believe me when I say that I want to talk to you all about it, but then I feel so guilty and I'm just at war with myself." I ran my fingers through my hair, clearly frustrated.

"I totally get that so let's make a deal." He said. "Let's have a codeword. If everything becomes too much and you feel yourself reaching for a bottle, just text me the codeword and I'll come over or you can come to our place and we can box it out. You don't even have to tell me anything, but you need to find something to relax yourself and put your mind at ease. Is that a deal?" He said as he stuck out his hand towards me. I looked at his hand and completely ignored it as I walked towards him wrapping my arms around his waist.

"What's the codeword?" I asked, not letting go of him. He squeezed me tighter and I already felt so much better.

"You pick." He said.

I tried thinking of random words, but then figured I would never remember. I thought of words that I associated with him and there were just too many, but finally I thought of one. "How about pizza?" I asked and I heard him laugh a little.

"Sounds perfect."

We spent the rest of the night relaxing and watching a movie. I really wanted to cuddle with him, but I knew that I was still confused about my feelings and I didn't want to confuse him. I noticed that he was starting to fall asleep so I got up and grabbed the extra pillow and blankets I had and helped him make a comfortable place to sleep on my couch. We both said goodnight and I headed towards my room. I laid down, but was not able to fall asleep at all. I knew I was tired, but I couldn't turn my brain off. Memories of Ben and Jay danced across my mind and then I had the new BTS album stuck in my head and I started worrying if it was even ready to be dropped this week. I got up several times just to walk around as my body was getting restless. I snuck out to my kitchen a couple times to grab a snack and a glass of water to just calm myself. I tried to distract myself and figured maybe watching a movie would put me to sleep. I didn't want to wake Jungkook up so I grabbed my earbuds and put them in. About 20 minutes into the movie, I saw my bedroom door open and Jungkook appeared in the doorway.

"Oh my god I didn't wake you up did I?" I asked, taking out my earbuds.

"Oh no. I was already up and figured I would just pop my head in." He walked over to my bed. "Have you slept yet?" He asked and I shook my head. "You need to sleep so how can I help?"

"Why don't you watch this movie with me so I don't feel so alone." I said and moved over so he could sit next to me. I put the computer on my bed in between us as we just sat next to each other. After about 10 minutes I finally started to feel tired again and without thinking, I let my head fall onto Jungkook's shoulder.

My eyes slowly closed and the next time they opened, I could see the light trying to peek in through my blinds. I noticed that I was still slightly sitting up in my bed with my head on Jungkook's shoulder and his arm around me. He was fast asleep and I really didn't want to wake him as he looked so cute sleeping. I carefully moved myself down and out of his grasp and then off the bed. Thankfully, he seemed to stay asleep as I made my way into the kitchen to make some coffee and get something to eat.