Saviour (Andy Biersack)

Chapter 23

I walk down the stairs, in Andy's arms, to the hotel room. He holds my hand and kisses my forehead. But for a while, It was just silence between us. "Hannah?" He asked me breaking the silence. "Hmm?" I say, almost able to make out words again. "Was... was it because of me?" He looked down at the ground, I could see the tears in his eyes. That broke down the wall, and the words just flew out. "No! Andy! Don't you ever. ever think that way. It was because of... bad memories... that I'll explain when we are with everyone. Okay? Its not something I'd like to relive more than once, let alone 3 times." He just nodded, he didn't seem to believe me. I stopped in my place and turned to him. He kept looking at the ground. "Andy" Silence. "Andy look at me, please" More silence but he looked at me. His beautiful eyes make me choke up. My heart started beating a million miles an hour at his beauty. "Andy, this... what happened. wasn't because of you. You did nothing wrong. Honestly, you did nothing but help me. And that's what I didn't get. I didn't understand why someone like you would go for a girl like me. Why you would continue to help someone so broken and worthless. I didn't get it. I don't get it. I felt horrible. It was mainly out of guilt... guilt and... well. nevermind. But I couldn't stand knowing that I was keeping you from loving someone so much better. Someone that could offer more, someone who could give something back to you, instead constantly just taking. Like me. You've done nothing but make my life better, and I just couldn't... couldn't even bare the though of knowing that I was bringing you down. Dragging you with me and, I just... I just wanted to end it all. Make it like I never existed."
I looked down as a tear fell from my eyes. He walked over to me and kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes as another tear fell, I looked up at him as he wiped the tear away with his thumb. "Don't you ever end it. You cant end the story before its even begun. And Hannah, Its not your book anymore, its ours. Where a team, you jump I jump remember?" I nodded and smiled a half smile. "You jump I jump." I repeated. He just smiled and took my hand as we continued down the hall to our room.

*Time Skip - the plane*

I take a deep breath and close my eyes as the plane takes off. My hand in Andy's I feel somewhat at peace, knowing he's right beside me and I'm going to be with everyone else soon. England. The land of british accents and fashion well, at least some good fashion in my eyes. To some it's the home of 1D and THE MOST AMAZING PLACE EVER BECAUSE 1D IS SOO COOL, don't get me wrong One Direction is a okay boyband but my mind and heart is pretty much set on Black Veil Brides, D.R.U.G.S, pierce the veil and so on. England is so beautiful though, not that I've ever been, but I've seen pictures.

After closing my eyes and taking a deep breath, I drift off to sleep in a matter of time.

*DREAM*

I look around me. I'm back where I was before, on the top of the building. I look down, I'm about 21 stories off of the ground. I start to panic almost falling.
"You Slut." I hear a voice. "Who's there?" I yell out in panic.
"You are a waste of space!" I feel the words stab me in the heart. "Go ahead, jump." One voice whispers getting interrupted by another. "You're a waste of air." I feel the tears come. "Stop! Please why are you doing this?!" The words keep echoing. "You're. not. worth it...." It fades in the distance. "Jump" I feel them all getting louder and closer, litterally consuming me in hatred. I feel myself wanting to jump. And the time is so right. I can just go. Leave this world.
"Ugly. Skank. Demented. Rat. Piece of shit. Worthless. Annoying. Emo. Cutter. Slut. Attention whore." They all consume me. I take a step forward and fall. The words continue as I'm in free fall. But I hear my name. "Hannah. Hannah." I close my eyes tightly.
"Go away! I just want to be left alone please! Leave me alone!" I hear them again, but now I'm about to hit the ground.

"Hannah"

*End Of Dream*

"Hannah!" I suddenly snap out of the dream and look up to see that I'm still on the plane and Andy is looking at me with scared eyes. "Hannah. Are you okay?" I wrapped my arm around his and interstwined our fingers. "Yeah. Just... just a nightmare. What happened?" I looked around once again.
"You where getting really tense. I heard you mumble something. But it wasn't clear. It sounded like you where saying 'stop' but I didn't know why." I sighed and looked down at my hands, noticing that they where still holding Andy's. "I'm sorry." He kissed me quickly on the forehead. How I so desperately wanted him to kiss me on the lips. Was there something wrong? What did I do? Oh yeah... I tried to commit suicide. I knew that if I ended it all it would've been better.
"Hey, stop." He said moving my head up with his finger. "What?" I said confused. "I know what you're thinking and I don't like it. Don't regret me saving you" I sighed. "How'd you know?" He half smiled dryly. "Because I know you way to well to not know." I sighed and kissed his shoulder. "Thank you." He wrapped his arm around me and I dug my head into his chest. "For what?" I looked up. "For saving my life." He smiled and was about to speak but suddenly the captain came on.