My eyes snapped open and I sat up, looking around wildly. When I realized where I was, my body relaxed and I closed my eyes with a sigh. My face felt tight from all the salt from my tears. I rubbed my hands against my face, trying to get my face to loosen up. I slammed my hands down on my lap and crossed them, leaning forward so that all my weigh was on my hands that where pressed against the grass.
I gathered grass in my hands and ripped it up, throwing it to the side and doing it again. My mind was a whirlwind of tragedy and hell.
My lip found its way back in between my teeth as I looked back out at the lake. The early morning sun shone off of it weakly and the sky was a pale blue. I was going to guess it was only four in the morning. The frogs continued to croak but now sounded like they were right next to my ears. The cars on the road yards away sounded like they were about to run over me. I covered my head with my hands and screwed my eyes shut. What was happening to me? My breath became labored and my body shook.
My eyes flickered open and I curled my legs up to my chest, wrapping my arms around them. My toes curled as I again shook.
God dammit, I had forgotten to take my anxiety pills. I rocked back and forth and buried my head in my knees, my hair fanning near my face.
"Come on, calming thoughts, calming thoughts." I willed myself, trying to calm myself down and stop the attack. But I couldn't.
And here, dear reader, is when I felt myself going insane. A scream ripped out of my throat before I could push it back and it passed by my teeth like a snake going to strike.
"WHY ME." I yelled, my body shaking at the force I spat those two words out of my mouth. My vision was slowly going foggy and dark as I tried to control my breathing. But I couldn't. Every person I have ever really met was flashing in my mind, all of them had disappointment etched across their faces like wood carvings. Their faces spun around in my head one by one coming forwards to give my a glimpse of their face before disappearing into the deep fuck hole my mind was creating.
Mom, Dad, Mitch, Jerome, Seto, Jason, Ian, Quentin, Max, Matt, all the bullies, and last of all Sky. Sobs ripped from my throat and I dug my nails into my head until I felt the stickiness of blood on my finger tips. I made this happen. It's all my fault. It is always my fault. My fault for all the shit I put everyone through.
"It'd just be so much better for everyone if I was fucking dead." I hissed through my teeth. Tears fell down my face for the eight hundredth time in the last day. I am just a fucktard in a human body. How could I be so stupid? To think people liked me! Ha what a fucking joke.
My vision continued to get darker around the edges and I knew I was going to pass out. I bit my tongue to keep from groaning as a wave of nausea and cold spread from my head to the top of my shoulders, covering my forehead and neck in a cold sweat.
My vision on turned even darker until the world around me was like starring through a tunnel.
"Oh my god, Ty!" I heard someone yell just as my brain shut off and I fell backwards into the oblivion of darkness.
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"Ty? Ty please answer me just this once after a million other tries." Someone's voice penetrated the blissful oblivion of darkness I was in. I slowly moved my head, opening my eyes to slits in the process. U flinched slightly and reshut them, the light in the room burning my eyes.
I laid there for a while. Thinking. Thinking about what the hell is happening with my life. Waiting. For what you ask? Waiting for oblivion. For comfort. For strength.
I opened my eyes slowly and they were met with another pair. Well, I should say a pair of shaded eyes. I quickly took in my surroundings. The walls where a creamy white with dark brown crowning at the top. The floors were a dark brown wood while the shears I was nearly placed on where a light blue. I am guessing this was Sky's house. But how did I get here?
"S-Sky?" I groaned quietly, my eyebrows furrowing in confusion. Surly this man hated me. I ran away from him after kissing him. I told him lies. I shut him out. I rejected his love in any way shape or form that I could manage. And yet here he was, standing over me as I laid weak and hurting.
"Oh my god..." Sky said quietly, kneeling down beside me and taking my hand in his. I didn't flinch back, I just wrapped my hand into his farther.
"Thank you." I murmured, my head filled with fog and my eyes feeling unfocused. A small smile crossed Sky's face as he squeezed my hand.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry Ty..." He whispered, taking his hand out of mind quicker then you could say any word you wanted to. I reached my hand out feebly, searching again for his hand.
"Ty... I thought you didn't want me near you." He asked quietly, hesitantly taking my hand back in his and drawing circles on the top of my hand with his thumb. I slowly propped myself onto my other arm, digging it into the mattress I was laid on.
"I didn't. I lied." I said simply before bringing my lips to his. His lips were soft. Sweet. Our lips fell almost perfectly together. Like two puzzle pieces. We were just two puzzle pieces stuck together and waiting for the world to form around us.
Sky pulled back and he let a sigh out of his mouth, the breathe tickling my lips.
"I take that as you are gay?" He asked jokingly. I let out a small laugh.
"I guess you could say that I may have lied to you about that. Sorry..." I laughed softly, not really meaning the sorry. A smile passed on my lips as Sky laughed, pulling away from me fully and dropping my hand.
"I guess this is just a flaw in our love story hmm?" He asked, laughing as he walked towards the door.
"Who said this was a love story?" I joked, lying my head against the white pillow behind me.
"Your lips told me." He said with a wide grin as he shut the door with a soft click.
Maybe this was just the beginning flaw of something great.
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Short and sweet I love it while you guys are probably ready to rip my head off. I will be writing another chapter today but it may not be published. I just watched The Fault In Our Stars so I'm full of inspiration right now. I hope you enjoyed and I will talk to you later. (Happy this didn't end in a sad note or a cliffhanger? You are welcome I really tried not to. And this is really cliche haha sorry the next chapter will be better I promise)
~Tara
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Fanfiction//Book One in the C Series// Tyler Lox was a happy-go-lucky guy until he came out of the closet, admitting he was gay. His family kicked him out and shunned him, leaving Ty to have to fend for himself. He rooms with his best friend, but he is never...
