the sister of ushijima (tendou x reader)

chapter twenty seven

why packin you ain't bout that action fuck yo bitch I'll blow her back in why you mad but not attackin pussy boi I'll send you back in I'm the best no doubt about it competition live with out it you just mad cuz I'm too roudy blah blah blah

however bakugou 😍 husbando with anxiety about failing seems like the perfect one for me

(okay wait a minute what's wrong with me i wrote all of that like a week ago 😳 i need to go back to therapy my goodness)

also guys i just got a new switch so if any one wants to like, yah know be friends😼 or something idk 😐 im kinda bored with life right now,,, like you know, when nothing excites you anymore or junk

i mean i just got my hair dyed and a gf but ;-; i can't tell if im ready for a relationship because of how badly i am at showing and feeling emotions since im so apathetic, or idk how to explain it

like im an aroace baby with horrible people skills and somehow i got a s/o (*_*)

it just doesn't sit right with me but she doesn't have my wattpad so i can rant as much as i would like to here

all i want to do is play Minecraft and watch anime but ;-; well jeez life is no going so great right now

all I've got is Minecraft, anime, and music by wabies (i suggest listening to them😌)

but jeez LIKE HOW they like me for me but ;-; how do people date

she wants to go on dates and go out and lay under the stars while i want to stay inside and under my blankets and junk

how do i- i can't even speak to her 😳 she's nice and wow but this feeling don't sit right with me

and it's not like i can go back like i done told my mama 😔 wait i sound like an asshole

holy shit

okay few steps back

she's a nice person, but idk if she's right for me, ya feel?

I'd rather jam out on discord with friends than be in a relationship, she isn't aware of my problems yet AND she isn't aware of my like demonic ass panic attacks where i sound like satan arising from the pits of hell

i just want to play minecraft 🥺

I don't DAMNIT MY FONT IS MESSINF SITH ME AGAIN NO

but ugh i don't want to hurt her feelings or anything because she says she likes me but i don't know if i can trust it

damn trust issues 😠 bruh UGH

I've never had this type of panic before and OMG I CSNT SHE WANRS TO GO OUT UGH

When I say go out I mean like in public like I can't do people

But how do I deal with that? I know it sounds like I'm complaining about a relationship but we're not at the stage where we talk about deep shit to each other ;-; i don't know how to talk to her about this stuff and it's not as easy as saying "tiMe WiLl tElL" or "JuSt TaLk To hEr" bc like dAmn brO

no.

sorry i can't do that my anxiety and over thinking said no, not today.

also she said my monotone shit is attractive like ELFVIVOF WALCJCOBDIE SOFBFFUCKIGNF FSMNIT I CSNF FUCKINF DO TBISD SHIT

*inhales* *exhales*

okay well on with the chapter

also, right here, at this point, i have started to type with my computer, so please forgive me if any of this turns out weird,,,, ive moved everything to my computer so i can keep my phone for editing only ;-;