Y/N'S POV
No, it should not be like this. That's not what I wanted to say. It matters. Everything that happened matters. I should tell him that, but my mouth won't speak or open.
He went upstairs looking down.
I made him upset.
I bit my lower lip, calming myself.
I gathered my courage and go after him. When I'm in front of my room I stop on my track. I breathe in heavily and started speaking.
"Taehyung" no answer.
"it's fine if you won't open the door" I told him, although it's my room in the first place.
"I'm sorry, that night, I was jealous. I'm so jealous that I saw you with some random girl and she kissed your cheeks. It was your fault for not telling me about your investigation" I started explaining it but he didn't even answer or made a sound. With that I continued speaking.
"But the truth is, even if it's for an investigation or not, the fact that other girls kissed your cheek irritated me, so much that I don't know where and how to vent out my anger. And when I saw you that time, I just snapped at you without really thinking or hearing your explanation. I'm sorry. It's my fault" I let out a breath after speaking. I gently touched the door.
"Taehyung, what I said earlier are lies. It matters to me. Everything about you matters, everything about you is important to me. What you do, what you eat, where you go, who you are with, what upsets you, I keep wondering and thinking about these things. That's why"
I leaned my forehead on the door. And clutched my hands.
"Can you please open the door?"
I want to see you.
I want to hug you.
"I'm sorry for acting childish" I said.
Why do I feel like I will cry?
I can't bear seeing his face like that.
I can't bear the fact that I made him upset.
I wanted to show him the perfect version of myself
So why?
Why did I get angry?
Why did I ignore him?
Why did I made him upset?
Why did I hurt him?
Why did I say those words when I didn't mean them?
"I'm sorry" I muttered.
"I'm really sorry Taehyung"
"How?" I heard him said inside the room. He finally spoke.
"What do you mean how?" I asked in return.
"How did you know that I'm here?" I just smiled at his question.
"Well, because you love my room, right?" I smiled sadly. He keeps telling me that he loves my room and he feels safe in it. he can even sleep with no worries. I thought he was weird. Every night he will sneak in my room.
"Again? Why do you keep sneaking in my room every night? Go to your room" I said, looking at the smiling man beside me who's snuggling my pillow.
"I just love it here" he answered. "Well, that is not acceptable" I told him.
"What's the harm? We're couple already" he said as a matter of fact.
"Yeah but I told you that we should sleep separately" I keep pushing him out of my bed but he won't budge.
"I don't want to. It feels cold in my room but here, it's warm and cozy. It feels safe. This can be the safest place here in your house" he smiled like a child, showing his boxy smile that I can't resist all the damn time. I sighed. I can't argue with him anymore. I'm too tired to deal with him. I will just let him to what he pleases tonight.
"Forget it, I will let you off the hook but tomorrow, I will definitely kick you out" I told him.
But the other night, he still did and I grow tired arguing with him so I let him sleep in my room every night.
"So, does it feel safe there? Does my room make your worries disappeared?" I asked, teasing him.
"Your room is filled with your scent so it calms me down" he said. "Are you some kind of pervert?" I asked him. I heard him chuckled. "Well, I'm only like this when I'm with you" he answered and slowly the door opened revealing him. He's smiling from ear to ear.
When I saw his face, I felt my negative emotions disappeared slowly.
"I'm really sorry, for everything that I said and for everything that I did which made you upset. I regret it, honestly" now that I'm talking in front of him, I suddenly felt embarrassed and bashful.
"I apologize too. I should have told you. This misunderstanding was made by me. If I told you beforehand then you would've misunderstood. I'm sorry that I upset you, it will never happen again Y/N" I keep looking down, because I feel bashful at the moment. And he's still half naked.
"Y/N?"
"Yes?"
"Why are you looking down?" he asked.
"No reason" I answered.
"Have you really forgiven me?" he asked again.
"Yes" I said still looking down.
"Then why won't you look at me?"
I couldn't answer his question.
He holds my face and made me looked at him but I close my eyes.
"what are you doing?" he asked confused.
"Closing my eyes?" I said as if I'm also unsure of what I am doing.
"Yeah, why are you closing your eyes?" he sounded confused. "I'm just meditating" my answer is ridiculous but I couldn't think of other reasons.
"Yeah, like I would buy that"
"Open your eyes" he ordered. "No" I told him.
"Why?" he sounded impatient. "I just don't want to" I said. I heard him sighed.
"If you won't open your eyes, I will kiss you" he said and with that, I opened my eyes immediately. when I saw his face, I felt my face getting hot. He smirked at me.
"What are you smirking at?" I asked while pouting. "You looked cute when you're embarrassed" he said. I just glared at him. He stared at me smiling.
"What should I do with you?" he started thinking. "What are you saying? Let go of my face now" I said but he just shook his head.
"Taehyungie is hurt by your words earlier, so you should receive your punishment" he said in a childlike voice. He was too cute and adorable that I couldn't rebut. I blushed harder because of his cuteness.
He smirked at my reaction. Damn, I fell in his traps.
"That's not fair" I said but he just chuckled.
"Nothing is fair in this world Y/N" he said. "Your punishment is" his face started getting closer. I can feel his breath and our lips are inches apart.
"this" he gently kissed me and I did the same. I put my arms around his neck and gently caressed his hair. He put his hands on my waist pulling me closer to him. Leaving no distance between us.
His hands started moving, caressing my back and then slowly and gently down to my hips. Suddenly he grabbed my butt cheeks hard that I squeaked. I pushed him and glared at him. I touched my butt cheeks which stinging from pain.
Taehyung just chuckled. "That's your punishment" he said and run away. I blushed at his remarks and chase after him.
"You damn idiotae!" I shouted angrily.
"At least put some damn clothes" I said. I can't chase him down looking like that.
