How long can I keep Smiling

Hi Im Neito Monoma

Neito Monoma's POV

Hi I'm Neito Monoma, blonde, blue eyes, 5'7", blood type A.

And well everyone thinks I'm a bully to 1-A, that I'm selfish, annoying, weak......and I wouldn't blame them if they said those words about me......because I'm all of them......

I'm also useless, a waste of space....even my quirkless sister Shima would be more of use to society than me......it should of been me who took my life that day not her........

You see my parents had three children..and by what I mean by had is well as you have heard already their oldest child committed suicide at only ten years old, it hit the news like a meteorite heading towards earth.

Then there was my older brother Miko, he held something similar to my dads quirk, my brothers quirk is razor claws.

Then there is me Neito Monoma, my quirk is copy where I can copy other quirks, similar to my mother except she can copy objects, and well my parents thought of it as a useless quirk, stating it wasn't a 'real quirk' and I've lead to know they are right.....

My father is a hero while my mother took support classes, so she creates hero equipment and all of that for my father and brother.

While me, they left me in the dust just like my sister when they found out she was quirkless......Miko though he never liked my parents perspective of life, he was always there for me when he could be, led me out of suicide many times.

And I was bullied throughout elementary and middle school for my quirk, especially by a certain group of seven, they said I would ether become a villain or an asset to society......but I don't want to be a villain or another normal person.....I don't want to be a disgrace to my family's name...... Miko said I didn't need to prove anything to anyone but he's wrong.....I need to show them I am worthy.....

So I got into U.A.!......but was it still enough?.....no...... it wasn't.......getting info U.A.....was all for nothing......They said Class 1-A was better than me since of that attack on their class......they said if I wanted to prove I was better than 1-A.....I had to bully and be better than them.....mock them, bully them, any harsh thing you could possibly think of....

I didn't want to hurt any of them.....but I needed to show them I was better....so I did it....except inside I was hurting like crazy from every horrible word that escaped my mouth when I talked shit about them.

Your wondering how I keep smiling after all this crap that happens to me.....well my sister Shima said to keep a bright smile on my face and something good is bound to happen.....

But my smile is as fake as ever.... and I don't know how much longer I can keep smiling for.

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"MONOMA!" I felt Kendo hit me on the back of the head.

"Ack!" I said rubbing my head.

"Come on lunch as started Monoma let's go I'm hungry!" Tetsutetsu pulled me from my seat and the three of us headed to cafeteria.

While we were walking I heard Kirishima from 1-A say "Ugh this is so hard!" He looked down at his text book and I took this as a perfect opportunity to strike some trouble even though my heart ached at the feeling.

"Aww whats wrong? I thought 1-A was supposed to be perfect at everything!" I said and they all shot me glare before Bakugou yelled.

"SHUT UP ASSHAT BEFORE I BEAT YOUR ASS!" He says and I feel Kendo hit me again.

"That's enough Monoma! I'm so sorry guys, enjoy your lunch." I hear Kendo say as my head spins from the big impact she had on my head.

And now my head was aching and I felt like passing out, maybe even puking, my parents beat me again and my father kept throwing my head into stuff so Kendo hitting it wasn't making it any better.

When she finally let me up I felt dizzy but continued to grab food pretending everything was fine like usual. And I put my tray down at the table and told the two "I'm going of the bathroom real quick don't touch my food." I said rubbing my head as my vision blurred.

I was halfway to the bathroom when I saw a chunk of green hair and the figure was staring at me I only heard faint words "M——ma?——e——ou——." Was all I got out before I felt myself hurl on the ground and then I fell forward blacking out.

Black was all I saw until my vision was becoming steady again, I woke up in the infirmary of the school and I saw Recovery girl filling in some files "What happened?" I asked as she turned her head to me and gave me a light smile.

"Midoriya saw you faint while heading to the bathrooms, he brought you here, say Monoma....I found out your head was injured severely....do you know why that is?" She asked me and I froze.

I couldn't tell her about my parents so I decided to lie "Kendo hits me on the head whenever I say something mean to 1-A....it's my fault so don't blame her though!" I explain and she nods.

"Okay You tell her that I told her to tone it down because of this, for now you are free to go now but please do take some rest." She tells me and I nod getting up from bed and changing into my U.A. uniform.

I was heading out and walking back to class as that where recovery girl instructed me to go, the bell  rung though before I can get there so everyone was heading out, I was passing 1-A's class when Midoriya caught a glance at me "Monoma! Are you okay? I saw you pass out." He asked me....I sigh....I decided to play it cool and just say.

"I'm fine....thanks for taking me to the nurses I guess....." I say before walking past him and heading to my friends.

Awase, Kaibara, Rin, Tsuburaba, Tetsutetsu, and Kendo, looked at me before rushing towards me "Monoma are you okay?" Rin asked me.

"Yeah we heard you fainted!" Kaibara said.

"I'm fine....it's just some heard damage.....Also Kendo Recovery girl told me to tell you to stop hitting me because the head damage was sever." I faced Kendo and she nodded.

"I'm so sorry Monoma, if I knew that me hitting you was this serious I would have stopped hitting you ages ago....just please stop being a jerk to 1-A....." she begged and I laughed.

"Not a chance!" I said and began to walk off, I head Kendo groan and the others slightly laugh as we all headed to the dorms since classes were now done.

How much longer of this can I take.....maybe just a little more.