Drunk on love / Calum Hood

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-Grace-

I woke up and felt well rested and made my way down stair do get some breakfast. The house was now clean, which was kinda weird since it was early for Ashton to even get up this time on a weekend, but I guess it was because mom and dad could come home at any time. I poured myself a coffee and decided to sit on the back porch since the sun was finally out. I took my mug and a paper and made my way to the back door. I had to walk trough the living room to get to the backyard and I found four tired boys lying in the two sofas, watching tv. 

”Morning” Ashton said as I walked past and I could fell four pair of eyes watching me. I waved my hand in the air for him, not bothered to turn around and look at him. I didn’t need Ashton to think that anything has changed since yesterday so I just played my nonchalant self. I closed the door and sat down on a chair and closed my eyes and turned my face towards the sun. I could still hear the voice from the living room and I could still feel some eyes watching me though the window.

”Ashton, your sis had gotten really hot” I heard a voice that I recognized, It was Michael. And since he’s always being really loud I could hear him clearly. 

”Stay away from her” Ashton said coldly. ”She’s nothing for you, man”. I liked the fact that Ashton cared about me and was protective but he can’t decide for me. But it doesn’t matter because I wasn’t interested in Michael anyway. Also Ashton knew what I was capable of, I think he said that to save Michael from me and not the opposite. As I am now, I wasn’t good for anyone. ”She’s still hot as fuck” Michael said again and laughed and I could hear Ashton sighed loudly at his acting. I drank up my coffee and read a bit in the paper until it started to get a bit chilly and windy outside. My bed would be a lot better place to read so I decided to go inside again. 

As I walked past the living room I heard someone whistle and I froze and looked over to the boys. Everyones head was turned towards Michaels and he had a smirk on his face. I saw Ashtons jaw clenching. I just shook my head and walked out of the living room and went to my room and sat down on my bed. I knew Michael only did it to annoy Ashton, but it annoyed me as well. I started to get pretty tired with guys thinking they can treat me how the wanted to. I know I sometimes give false signals but that doesn’t mean I do everything for a guy. 

I sat in my bed and just thought about stuff. That's one of the many downsides of being depressed, your brain over thinks too much. I put my headphones on and turned up the music and tried to think about something happy and fun but it was just too hard. I felt like crying, I had no idea why but sometimes you just have to cry. I think I cried because I was such a failure at life and that I didn’t like myself right know. I was giving myself to different guys every weekend and getting wasted, that wasn’t me but my brain said I had to do it. 

Everything around me was always grey, my life was completely colorless. I got lost in my thoughts for a couple of hours until I heard the front door open followed by my parents voices. I heard steps in the stairs and mom opened my bed room door.

”Hi Grace, how has it gone for you guys? We was planning on ordering a pizza for tonight if you want one?” She said and smiled her typical mommy-smile. 

”Good, Yeah I can have a pizza, please” I said shortly, I noticed that I hadn’t eaten anything the whole day so a pizza would be great. I walked down with my mother and sat on the sofa in the living room and turned on the tv. Mom and dad went to pick up the pizzas and Ashton sat down beside me. He didn’t say anything but it wasn’t awkward either. I thought he would lecture me about staying away from his friends but he was quite.