shinobu + giyuu oneshots

˚✧⁎ ⁺˳✧༚ milky her ⁎⁺˳✧༚˚✧

Milky Her
Written by: Wan Ting

Sometimes I just sit in my bathtub my skull pressed against the cold wall and laugh, I have no reason to, but I do. The laughter fills the bare canvas that is my apartment. I always felt a need to fill up the dull noise, and just stop. The unsettling way the curtains moves sends shivers to my heart. Still after all this there are times I just do nothing, I don't laugh, I can't, I feel like there's no point to it. What an oddball I can be and still I fit perfectly in the backgrounds of the city. Leaving the bathroom is like walking for the first time, wobbly, refreshing, and at the core, part of society. Still I wander to the bed, I'm not tired, I never am, but I have nothing else to become of. As if I was tired in the first place my lids slowly start to sink in. The darkness of my apartment masked by the lights of the outside world reflect upon me as my day or possibly life flashes before me.
Oh shit! The lights that are not on are blinding me, the once void is closed for now. My alarm didn't ring, I'm gonna be late. I feel a need to get up, but for what, putting in a check I never use. I still crawl out of my slumber, her face in front of me. It hurts knowing I can never appreciate it, but life passes by, there are no breaks. I still manage to leave shockingly, everything is an arm and leg near. That's still not close enough and it's gone, the city nevers stops as a I just wait there, hundreds of people passing by me, but they'll never know me, they'll never see me even though I'm so close. I just look at the people, the city, taking a peek into other's lives even for a second. One person I notice being especially keen on. Although she would just be "normal" she wasn't she was "her." Looking at her flora, she was "her." Her skin, a baby on smooth milk. Her eyes, a flora within themselves but acrylic. Oh, and she oh so plump lips, strawberries hearts were ripe. She held my gaze, yes Dolly yes. Sadly I could not be hypnotized by her for any longer as life goes, so does the city. I still stole a glance and let me tell you her was erotic. She being under me was a pleasure embedded deep within me. And even though my feelings were felt I would never touch her because fragile items break at a fingertip, and I was not willing to break her. I fantasized to her that night, her was erotic, Dolly made me feel a certain way that was chilling. I came to the thought of her, oh how I wished she would talk to me, be under me, tied up, calling me master, but sadly she had no idea of my thoughts. And life did continue. I saw what was mine and as she did everyday she was a good girl for me and layed pretty and still. Dolly was a good girl, but I needed more, sunrise wasn't gonna always be a possibility, I was becoming greedy, but I just needed more, another look, a minute more or maybe an hour. I no longer laughed, I had a purpose, yes finally. My purpose was to be the owner of Dolly, she was mine and I was to watch her. As I was her owner, she never looked at me. why? Why? WHy? WHY! SHE WAS MINE AND ONLY MINE, SHE HAS NO RIGHT TO BE TALKING TO OTHER MEN AS I WASN'T TALKING TO OTHER WOMEN, AND YET WHY WAS SHE LIVING LIKE I DIDN'T EXIST. I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF HER, SHE NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND THAT I AM SHE OWNER AND AS HER OWNER SHE MUST LOOK AT ME AND ONLY ME! I CANNOT ACCEPT ANY OTHER ANSWER, SHE IS MINE! SO WHY STILL CAN'T SHE CONNECT TO MY GAZE? I'M GETTING ANNOYED DOLLY, DON'T MAKE ME DO THIS, BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO MAKE YOU SAD, BUT YOU REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE ME. And so I went up to her, maybe, actually no, I just stood there and there I stood, I needed her to look at me as I have been to her, so now she has no choice but to look. In a flash my body was numb, pain was no longer an option as I already was in pain. I looked up one last time and saw Dolly staring back at me, in horror. Yes, finally she looked at me, she finally did and I'm grateful for that day let me tell you.

a/n: this is a filler, it's a psychological duality story i wrote a little over a year ago that i really love. this is no fanfic, so please don't give the characters names.