Never Ending Love (Jenlisa)

8 - Flashback 7 (The day has come, let bygone be bygone)

Flashback 7 (The day has come, let bygone be bygone)

Today is the wedding day for Jennie and Kai. She's been so happy with her wedding and did not realize how sad I am. The reason is because I meet Kai again just to get better explanations but he just smirks telling me to get out of their life. What he did is none of my business and if I disturb the wedding, he knows Jennie is not going to like it. I told him not to hurt her or else I will hunt him down and make sure he is going to regret this. Since Jennie is eager for this wedding, I sacrifice my own feelings for her. They said if you really love someone, let them go to where they are happy with.

I always told myself that a broken heart is just the growing pains necessary so that you can love more completely when the real thing comes along. That is if the real thing ever comes along but I accept it with open heart. When you care for someone more than they deserve, you will get hurt more than you deserve but I choose this hence I need to stick with it. Sometimes I felt like a firefly that is trapped in a bell jar, starving for Jennie's love. I smile to myself standing beside Jennie in the room where a bride will be waiting for their time to walk on the aisle. Her smile is so bright that it melts me right away. How I wished I'm at the other room waiting for you my love but I know we don't exist in this relationship. Chaeng is the bridesmaid for today because I refused to do so even though Jennie begs me many time. This one thing I cannot do it because I will be moving away soon.

Jisoo got my letter already and keep it close with her. Later after the wedding is almost over, she will call Jennie somewhere quiet to give my letter to her. Secretly without Jennie knowing when she's busy with her wedding preparation, I booked my flight ticket to Thailand at night. I have got someone to clean my parents' house as I will be returning home today. When Jennie went out of the house to go to the church, I already got my things pack as I don't have much thing over here; it is easy to get all my important items. All my items that match Jennie have been packed together. I want it to be our memories in Thailand.

I know Jennie will not come back to our house today as she will be moving to Kai's house after their wedding. I know she will be coming back to take all her item with her the next day so I left a post it note on her table.

Love you always! Remember that! – L.M

I excuse myself to sit with Jisoo and look at Jennie the last time. I hugged her tight knowing I will not be seeing her for how long I don't know. Chaeng gave me a sad look because she knows I'm not going to be here once they are officially husband and wife.

"You hugged me like you're not going to see me anymore Lili. You will see me tomorrow when I need to take my things ok?" I smiled at her but did not show any yes or no because I will not be there tomorrow. She looked at me for a long time and gave my cheek a kiss.

"I'll always love you Lili, remember that" She smile and I return the kiss to her cheeks.

"I'll always love you more than you do Nini, always in my heart. Don't ever forget that. Please update me if you have cute child later on okay?" I make my way sitting beside Jisoo with a sad smile. Jisoo just rub my back soothing me and I know I need to do this. I hope Jennie understand that I can no longer bear my heart breaks and she should be happy with Kai. I will always put her in my prayers. Always.

The music start and I saw Jennie walking down the aisle accompanied by her father. Her smiles are bright for everybody to see and I can see Kai smirk on the altar making me cringe but I just compose myself to be as relax as I can be. Jennie saw me sitting beside Jisoo and gave me her brightest gummy smile for me and I took my camera and snap her smile. I will treasure this smile for the rest of my life. I got many candid photos of Jennie when she is not aware of it. I keep it close to me because I can only love the image of her because her heart now belongs to Kai.