She Married A Gangster

Chapter 20

My heart started stammering inside my chest. What is happening to me? Ang bilis ng mga pangyayari. It feels so unreal. The first second, I knew I hated him passionately pero ngayon, hindi ko na alam. It feels so unexplainable. It's like I wanna hug him then throw him off a cliff at the same time. But throwing him would be

"I- I don't know what to say." I looked at my twirling fingers placed on my lap. Biglang natigil ang pag iyak ko at pakiramdam ko niyayakap ako ng lamig sa kotse niya.

"You don't have to say anything." Binaba niya ang shades niya for the first time in hours. I lifted my gaze up to him then he looked at me with a freaking smile. It sent shivers down my spine. So now he's smiling? Argh. Ang gulo niya. Ang gulo gulo niya! One minute he's angry at me and giving me a cold shoulder, acting like I'm a villain and now he's smiling?!

I avoided his eyes then stared back into the road, trying to forget everything I just saw. He probably just stared back the road too.

"San ba talaga tayo pupunta?" Nagsalita na ako para mabawasan ang awkwardness. "Kanina pa tayo bumabyahe." I wiped my eyes dry one more time. Thank you God dahil nawala na ang pagdadrama ko. It just feels heartbreaking to feel two people get mad at you in a day. Pakiramdam ko tuloy ang sama sama ko masyado.

"Anywhere." I looked at him and he just shrugged. Bumalik na rin ang normal niyang boses. Hindi na ganun sa kanina na parang namatayan siya.

"Anywhere? Are you f*cking kidding me? We have been driving for ours!" I exaggeratedly pointed on the road.

He chuckled then ginulo nanaman ang buhok ko. I glared at him but deep inside of me, I knew na maayos na ulit kami. Well not that I can't live without him and... Ah! Basta the point is that hindi na akong mag kakaroon ng burden. Na hindi na siya galit sakin for being too suplada. Hindi pa kasi siya nasanay. Alam niya namang ganito talaga ako. I can't help being sarcastic and rude at times. I just hope he realizes it.

"Remember the day when I asked you if you wanted to meet my parents?" My eyes focused on him one more time. I can't focus on what he's trying yo say. How can he be so freaking annoying and adorable at the same time? Naiinis ako sa sarili ko--no, naiinis ako sa kanya.

"You look adoying." My eyes widened in horror. Anong sinabi ko?! "No, I mean you look annorable." I covered my face with my hands in utter frustration. "Uuurrr...." Nakakahiya. Nakakahiya ako.

"Ha? Ano?" May halong pagtawa ang tanong niya. "What the hell are you saying?"

"It was nothing!" I shouted with my face covered. I'm pretty sure I'm blushing right now.

"Tell me." he said in a commanding and stubborn tone.

"Wala nga!" I stopped covering my face then placed my hands back on my lap. I avoided his gaze then looked at the car window. I can feel his amusement. He really does love to annoy me. And f*ck it, I hate it when I get annoyed.

"Then why are you blushing?" Natatawa niya ulit na tinanong. Hindi ko siya pinansin and I just bit my lower lip habang pinipigilan ang sarili ko sa pagbulyaw uli sa kanya dahil baka magtampo nanaman ang bading na to. Tss. Kala mo babae kung makapagtampo. I looked away and focused on the pine trees.

Wait, nasa tabi na kami ngayon ng isang sementeryo. What the.

He held my chin and forced me to look at him. "Tell me."

"Wala nga, ok?!" I started explaining with my hands. Weird, kinikilabutan ako sa paghawak niya sakin.

"Fine then. Don't tell me." Binitawan niya ang baba ko at mukha akong tanga na nakatingala sa kanya. Bigla siyang prumeno sa gilid ng daan ng sementeryo at tinigil ang car engine. "Wag mo sabihin and I wont drive." Pagbabanta niya ng may halong pang aasar.