Apples

Prologue

Apples

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Chapter 1

I hate it.

I hate everything. No one understands, though. Nobody understands why I am always so sad, why I avoid family time or hanging out with my friends.

Nobody understands why I'm locking myself in my room all the time rather than being more social, like my brother.

Ryder. Of course. My parents favorite; my twin brother. I live in his shadow. How could I not? He is the star of the basketball team; and next year he will probably go to Villanova and get a scholarship, like my dad and grandfather. He will be the family legacy, and I will be remembered as the child lucky enough to be born at the same time as him.

My parents are oblivious to the fact that I cry myself to sleep every night. They don't notice the scars on my wrist and they never ask me why I wear long sleeves in the summer.

But I don't expect them to.

What parent has the time to babysit their depressed daughter when they have to go to her twin brother's basketball game and cheer him on?

Apparently not mine.

They never knew that I tried to kill myself in eighth grade. They never understood why my eyes were always puffy and why I never smiled. They never took notice in when I didn't eat any of my food.

They never asked.

My old friends would always tell me that I had a good life. I mean, shouldn't a girl with rich parents, a star brother and captain of the volleyball team be happy?

But, I quit volleyball in ninth grade because the ball would hit my wrists whenever I would cut them and cause it to bleed. My parents didn't notice that, either.

Sierra Brown told me I was fat in tenth grade. At five feet and four inches, I was one-hundred and five pounds. It was practically at an anorexic weight. That year I lost ten more.

When I was eleven, I began wondering what the point of living was. Years and years of wondering yet I found no answer. I came to conclusion that their is no reason.

No reason for me to live.

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alright this is my first part to the story. I know it's not that great, sorry! btw it's unedited. I'm just starting out...
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-xoxo meg