dreams ; kageyama tobio

nine

You have been hanging out with that blueberry head for a while now. It's safe to say that the both of you have become a very good company to one another.

However, it always seemed like there's something off with Kageyama. As if he wanted to tell you something so bad, from the very bottom of his mind. Yet he never got to. He always swallow it back in and left you totally confused at the rest of the conversation.

Meanwhile, with Kageyama, he was still questioning about how does his thoughts works. Because not just the first and third clip now, the fourth one were also fading out slowly too day after day.

You have been here in Miyagi perfecture for a month now. And believe it or not, Kageyama was the closest to you. Actually, no. He was your only friend. You wanted to be close to him forever, in any status between you two. You just could not let him go. This is exactly what you were afraid of. After losing your brother, it was hard for you to be friends with anyone. You tried your best to avoid people, afraid if you will end up loving them. Cause you know so well, there will always be a time where you would never see them again.

A news crashed your heart last night, it hit you hard like a truck. It made a big hole of sadness and a pool of tears. There was no way you could escape this coming right at you.

"Tobio.." You tugged at the lower part of his volleyball jersey, right below the big white nine. "I've been meaning to tell you something." You said as you sat up.

He looked over at you and raised one of his eyebrows. A hint of curiosity decorated the pure black of his eyes.

"You see.." His upper body moved closer to you unitentionally, caused by his interest for the topic. You backed away a little bit before continuing.

"We have been very good friends right. We always hang out practically everyday." You were the kind of a person that was not much a fan of chit chatting and not right to the point. But for this case, you didn't know what else to do.

Kageyama's heart was racing faster than anytime before. There was so many possibilities of where your sentences could lead to. It could be you asking him out if that's even possible. Kageyama rolled his eyes at his hope that was set too high. Or it could be you friendzoning him and tell you have zero feelings for him because you actually knew he secretly kissed you. Kags, don't be too hard on yourself. Or it could be you asking to marry him. Who are you, me!? Stop being stupid. Or maybe it could be you asking if-

"I'm going back to Tokyo."

That was unexpected.

"Tomorrow."

"Okay. Let's be serious here." He laughed while an expression of choosing not to believe was printed on his face, an easy peasy facial expression for you to read.

"I.. am serious." You looked down. Not being able to look at his face right now. You wasn't ready for what was gonna happen. He could be angry at you and have a full on rage. Or he could be relieved that you were going away from him if he only sees you as a burden. You were just not ready for anything gonna be thrown at you mentally.

"You gotta be kidding me." He laughed again as he said that. An unbelieving laugh. "Cause this morning, i woke up and pray so this would be a good day. Everyday, since i became your friend, i woke up with no negativity, i smiled at breakfast and i never came to school late even once. I became one of those.. nerds that got happy because of school." He rolled his eyes as he let a chuckle escape his lips.

"I'm sorry, Tobio. It was not my desicion to make. I couldn't convince my parents to let me stay."

He went silent for a full minute. "Yeah, i should've undertand that at the first place. I-i'm sorry." Kageyama took a deep breath and exhaled to calm down himself. He wasn't expecting you to go so soon, anybody would react like he just did.. right?

"It's okay for you to be mad. I would be mad too if you did the same to me." You finally looked up at him. But he was not looking at you, his eyes were up in the sky. His jaw clenched as he bit his bottom lip to prevent himself from bursting into tears.

Kageyama couldn't help it anymore. He wanted to cry so fucking much. He could do it for an hour and still have a big amount of tears left. But he didn't want to show you that he was that weak. He didn't want to make you cry too.

So he stood up, his face facing the opposite direction from you, sliping on his Karasuno volleyball jacket within a second. "I gotta go. Meet you at the blueberry hill tonight. 9 p.m. sharp." It was all he said before rushing down the ladder and ran home.

As he ran, you could see him tearing up, wiping away his tears with his sleeves. His sobs was still heardable even from the distance. You sighed and layed back on the rooftop. Now with tear drops slowly falling down your eyes.