Hey lovelies, I really want to update everyday, and I was doing good until recently. I want to be transparent with you guys and explain why it takes a while for me to update the last month.
I have ADHD and take a very controlled mediation for it. Its classified methamphetamine and can be deadly if I crush it or chew it its so controlled. But because of that interactions between other medications can be deadly or really bad. My last two medications I've tried for my anxiety have really bad and almost ended my life due to interactions, I've been trying to regain strength and get better before stressing myself to update everyday.
My mental health has slowly been decreasing. A lot of traumatic stuff happened to me around this time and its bringing up bad memories. I've simply had no motivation.
I have a knee injury that sometimes prevents me from standing up. My knee cap will dislocate and weaken the muscles/tendons around it. I say this because the physical therapy for it is 2 hours a day and takes up my writing time. I just learned what was wrong a few weeks ago, my doctor's office is a hospital so there are covid patient's there. When visiting the office, we're encouraged to take a test for it. When my results came back, it said that I had corona back in April. I am willingly to share my experience if anyone is interested in that and sharing tips on how to beat it. Because I didn't even know that was it until now. I had it in a way of it never crossed my mind of being corona because it matched none of the described cases. If you all want to know, I am willingly to share.
I've been just trying to help myself by staying off social media(totally happening 🤡🤡) and working on myself before stressing about everyday updates. So if you'd rather have me destroy myself and health to get out a 600 word chapter I'm no where near happy of everyday, I don't want you as a reader. Learn too wish for my health before your entertainment.
One more thing, I found a really really nice Army friend on Insta. She's so cute and loveable and young and is like a little sister to me. But she struggles so much. She believes BTS don't love her as a human but as a "I love my fans". I came up with a plan that would be amazing you all helped.
On Weverse, everday 5 times a day, I'm posting this:
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I want to get BTS to tell her "I love you" so she can start to feel loved. Hearing it from her idols is a jump start she needs. It breaks my heart to see such a beautiful, golden soul not see its own shine when staring in the mirror.
ARMY, I need you to help by posting this on Weverse with me. We are stronger in numbers and I believe I can trust you all to help. We're like a family. So please, do post this even once a day to help her.
