Play Date (Oihina)

Not Number 1

Oikawa POV
Before I knew it, I awoke painfully from a weird dream.. where he touched me gently I looked at my boxers at that morning only to see it with a weird white liquid on it. This was his first wet dream brought by his unrequited love to his childhood bestfriend.

He is a boy who smelled like the sun, his smile radiates with such warm light that covers my cold unsatisfied heart. He is a boy who loved insects, creatures that I used to be afraid of yet he taught me how to like them.

We met when I was in elementary he moved next door to us. He had this raven spiked hair and a stern expression, I was scared of him. I was just a cry baby who loved volleyball and aliens.. few kids considered me weird but when he learned that I also loved volleyball like him we became closer.

He is my best friend, he would always show his concern to me and we spent countless of days together. When I hid my emotions he was there to unmask it all, he showed how to be strong with his will.. this made me no longer cry it made me different.

I realized that I loved him on our days in middle school but I was rejected right off the bat indirectly, he is straight there is no way he would like men.. he hated doujinshi and bl he was probably homophobic... That is why I lost hope that my feelings would be returned so I withdraw, only to be by his side, closest to him...

I am his setter and he is my ace. I am the king and he is my knight. I thought that I will be able to go to greatest lengths with him but I was proved wrong when we lost on a fated day.. I overworked myself and caged myself in my anxiety but even in those times he led me to light giving me a reason to be stronger not just for me nor for him but for our team.

I am his captain, his classmate, his setter, his bestfriend and the person who is closest to him.. I felt satisfaction because I have this title only for myself but when did all those went astray? Why did I lose? I thought that I was your number 1 but why is it that in volleyball and even with you I always end up inferior.