purgatory | g.d

eleven

song for chapter
your soul- rhodes

[Jade's Pov]

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January  19th, 2019 7:49 am
"don't do it to me"

I dragged my body as I walked down the pavement to the apartment complex. It wasn't even if I was thinking about walking but somehow my legs kept moving. I have been walking for about two hours, taking breaks in between.

My eyes felt so heavy, my vision was practically out of focus. I was higher than a kite but I also felt lower than six feet.

It was freezing and I couldn't stop shaking. I approached the walkway, happier than I ever been. I almost wanted to fall to my knees, that's how weak I felt.

"where the hell have you been" I heard, turning to see him.

I ignored him, continuing to walk again. "Answer me!" he called out.

"I don't have to answer to you," I said. I felt a tug at my arm, turning me to look at him. His face softened once he got a good look before boiling with anger once again. Damn, I must look really bad this time.

"where were you jade," he said softer.  a small grin on my face. "Why do you care... I'm just a girl blaming her dead parents for her actions" I said.

"you were gone for almost two days jade...TWO days!" he said. I shrugged, trying to ease out of his grip.

"Oh no, I didn't sit out here all night, miss my morning classes for you to blow me off," he said, regaining his grip.

"What the hell happened?" he said, his hand trying to caress my cheek but I moved. I looked at him with a devious smirk, clearly pissing him off. "I took a trip and it took a while for me to wake up, can I go now?" I said.

He scoffed, "For Fuck sakes Jade...Do you not care about your life at all?" he yelled, grasping his hair out of frustration.

"Because I do," he said.

"And I don't know if it's because I don't have anyone left or the fact that I see potential in you becoming better."

"So whatever you're trying to do to yourself. Please don't do it to me,"

"And I'm sorry for mentioning your parents, it wasn't and never will be my place to speak on it," he said.

"Say something"

"What do you want me to say?"

"Anything," he said, maintaining my attention. I felt his hand brush along past mine, "you're freezing" he said, pushing me towards the building. He felt me dragging and decided to carry me in.

"209," I said, not having the strength to walk on my own. He started to climb the stairs. The only thing heard was my light breaths, desperately trying to get warm. "I don't have my key" I murmured. "I asked Ronnie to leave the door unlocked," he said, twisting open the knob.

It was like a jolt in his body. I could feel his eyes staring all over, it looked terrible in here.

"where's your room," he said.

I laughed. "you're standing in it," I said, getting out of his grip and walking to the couch. Not even caring to change my clothes, just kicking off my boots and getting under the sheet.

he was just standing there, watching me with a small smile.

"I don't wanna be alone right now," I said, too scared to just plane out ask him to stay. He nodded, looking around for a chair. I moved further into the couch. Him hesitating before getting under the cover laying next to me, making sure I had most of it.

He still held a small smile, his attention not leaving me. I could feel my eyes closing.

and for once I felt safe.