melancholia → jin-centric

letter

TO: KIM NAMJOON
FROM: KIM SEOKJIN

Thank you, Namjoon-ah.

Thank you for being there. Thank you for being the best leader we could ever ask for.

Don't go hard on yourself. I'll still guide you, even if I'm not there anymore.

It's not your fault. Neither do the others. So don't blame yourself, okay? It's just I decided to give up. Everything's too much. I can't go on, Joon. Life is so awful for me.

I will still be there, appreciating and loving each and every one of you. Even if I'm not there physically.

Don't let this change you. I trust and believe all of you, so please don't break the promise you made. Continue to be happy.

Tell Yoongi that it's all fine. The kids will start to depend on him, and tell him to take it easy. He's going to be the new eldest hyung, right? So tell him to take care of you guys, and take care of himself.

Tell Hoseok that it's going to be okay. Please don't let his smile be concealed, tell him don't lose his sunrays, and don't stop dancing. Take care of him, Namjoon, even though I know you'll do. I have to make sure, hope you don't mind.

Tell Jimin that he's more than enough. Don't let him go hard on himself, remind him that he's very great. Don't let the insecurities get him. Trust me, always check up on him.

Tell Taehyung to stay happy. Never push him away if he wants to talk to you, because you'll eventually regret it. Let him talk or ramble to you because by time, he'll open up.

Tell Jungkook that it's not his fault. If he comes to your room at night (tell the others too), cuddle with him. He's attached to my hip every time, so this is a major change for him. Tell him that I'm sorry, okay?

And Namjoon, I'm sorry that I left earlier than we knew. Don't forget our promises, our late night drinks, and the shitty things we have done. I leave it all to you, and I am not there anymore to guide you all. Ask Yoongi if you need help, he knows it the most. Don't drown yourself in the stress of everything, take it lightly.

Goodbye. I love you, take care. I'm sorry.

- 진