Friend or Foe (Elsa X Fem!Reader) Frozen/FrozenII

Chapter 4 - If Only

She’s not here. 

My bones were starting to turn cold as the night railed in the last bits of warmth that the son had so delightfully left behind. But now that the moon was slowly brightening up and the sun was starting to paint the skies with a beautiful orange and pink colour, the warmth that had first kept me company left me to huddle closer together. Because as the warmth slipped away, so did the hope I had too. 

My whole being had felt like crumbling to the ground as my lungs dysfunctioned and heart tightened together to the point where I thought it would never return to its former self. My eyes had watched the boulder from just behind a tree, carefully studying whether there was any signs of her having been there. But as I had not found any of these signs, my body had made its way to the big rock, placing me on my usual spot with my back against the chilling stone.

I clenched my jaw as I felt the tears burning behind my eyes, but didn’t want them to run down my bruised cheeks. I don’t want to cry, although right now it was everything I wanted to do. She wasn’t at the boulder yet, yet it was already getting late as again I had been held from getting to the big rock any sooner. 

Maybe she will still come. I can wait for her. But she is not going to come here again, why would she. I have faith she will, she said she would. She didn’t, she only said what she couldn’t. Couldn’t, that means she would still want to. What gives her a reason to. A friend. Did she ever call you that. But she could. But would she. I sighed and closed my eyes, hugging my knees closer to my chest. I buried my face into my folded arms and tried focusing on my breathing to not let those thoughts get to me. I wouldn’t want to hurt her again. 

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Elsa’s P.o.v.

I pressed my back against the wall as I heard the footsteps coming closer, holding my breath in fear that they might hear me. Their mumbling voices not completely reaching my ears and they never did as they started to slowly fade away again. I let go of the breath I didn’t know I was holding and pushed myself from the wall, quickly crouching down after behind some bushes to shield me from the guards. 

I bit my tongue to keep me from cheering as I slipped past the last two guards and out of the back gates of the castle. I ran across the path and skidded down the small ledge at the side to walk between the trees and bushes again. Even though I was away from the castle and wore clothing anyone could have worn, I wanted to make sure I wasn’t spotted by any pair of wandering eyes. 

I inhaled deeply and closed my eyes just for a moment to take in the free and warm evening air. I can’t wait to enjoy this together with (Y/N). A stupid smile pulled at my lips and I bit the nail of my thumb. I really like talking to her and just being with her in general. I wonder how she thinks of our talks. I sighed in relief as I walked past the small tower of rocks I had made as a landmark so I could easily find my way back to our boulder.

I walked faster and duck underneath a low hanging branch, while making sure not to rip my dress to shreds as that would only make Gerda question me more. I was sneaking out a lot more often than before just to see (Y/N), but that also caused two specific servants to become cautious of my whereabouts. 

Although it made sneaking out a lot more difficult, it warmed my heart. They have always been the parental figures to Anna and I since our parents deceased. Those times after may have been rough, but they where a big factor of us coping. Without them I am sure I would have lost control sooner. But because they were so worried, I started thinking about the woman I have been seeing at the boulder some other way. I don't know a lot about her she always has a way to circle around whatever she doesn't want to tell. Even though she doesn't say that much, she really has a way with words and always finds a way to compliment me on even the most little things.