1. Who are you now? (Tokio Hotel -Tom Kaulitz fanfiction)

Chapter Twenty One. Animals.

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I woke up to a note next to me on the pillow allegedly from Tom. I was naked in my bed, which was odd enough. Images from the previous night of us kissing and touching each other made it obvious for me that I wasn't dreaming. We had been together and now I couldn't see him around. I still held on to his promises from last night and read the note.

"You have to say yes to him and forget about "us" – it doesn't exist.

Forgive me, I didn't mean to hurt you, but I know I'll keep doing it."

I looked at the ring on my bedside table and then at the little note feeling cheated on as something in my chest broke in a way entirely new. I held on to the covers and walked to the kitchen for my phone, it was still there, next to the remaining alcohol from mom's wedding. I called Tom, he had to answer. He had to.

Only he didn't. Five calls later I had been sent straight to voice mail and I knew he was avoiding me on purpose, making me cry and reminding me that he wasn't there to keep his stupid promises. I threw the phone on the bed back in my room and sat on the floor covered by the pinkish sheets, they still held some of Tom's strong cologne, which made me rage in the middle of my crying.

Something broke and I could feel it, I put my hands on my chest and held on to it while sitting on the floor, my breathing got heavier. Someone knocked on the door downstairs but I couldn't get up, I couldn't see through my wet eyes. A little while after I heard the door open, it should be Bill, he was the only one to know where the spare key was.

"Jo? Are you awake?" He came from the stairway and entered my room only to find me holding on to the bed sheets and my cell phone. "What happened?" He knelt beside me and placed a hand on my back with worry.

"I – I – Bill, it hurts!" I turned to my blonde friend and held on to him just as tightly as I'd been holding my own chest, almost like trying to stop a bleeding with your bare hands.

"What hurts, Jo?" He hugged me back. "What is it? I've never seen you like this... Jo, you're scaring me, what is it?"

"My chest." I said to him as he grabbed the note from his brother.

"What does this mean?" He pulled away from me and I felt the pressure on my chest growing when I showed him the ring I didn't wanna put back on, I didn't want to go back to Matt or be with anyone who wasn't Tom, but he had been harsh enough...he had me on a high only to drop me equally fast. If only I had known it wasn't meant to last I would have saved myself the pain.

Bill was smart enough to put it together in his head. He took out his phone and called his parents, excusing us from that brunch with them, saying that I felt under the weather, which was absolutely true. Bill handed me my inhaler from the top drawer of the night stand and helped me sit on the bed. If I always thought he looked so different to Tom, it wasn't enough different today, I couldn't look at his face.

"You don't have to stay." I told him, I didn't want to say the words 'leave me alone' but I preferred the loneliness than his company at that time.

"I can't leave you like this." Bill was such a great friend it hurt me to admit to him that I couldn't look at his face without tears forming in my eyes.