Rebel Girl

9} I Suck At Friendzoning

© Amber Kalkes 2014

Song: "Inside Out" By Eve 6

 

Chapter Nine: I Suck At Friendzoning. 

 

After about a half an hour of driving Lou pulls the car to a stop at a seemingly random place. Looking out the front car’s window though I can see it’s not random at all. It’s home to one of the best views of the town I’ve ever seen. Turning to see Lou already staring at me I immediately avert my gaze back to the view.

“I didn’t know this was up here.” I comment awkwardly.

“Yeah sometimes I drive around when I’m trying to think. I found this about three weeks ago. Its calming isn’t it?”

Nodding I hum in agreement. My palms are sweating and I’m shifting in my seat from just how intense his gaze feels on me. I am far from an attention-lover and despite it being Lou I still can’t the tremble in my hands. At least I’m not vomiting so at least have that right?

Right?

Ah hell.

“You look nervous.”

I let out a harsh exhale. “You have no idea.”

“Why?” He chuckles. “Its just me.”

“I know. I have no idea why I’m so nervous. I guess because this is the first I’ve ever hung out with a boy…or I guess, man, alone.”

“Ever?”

I shrug, keeping my eyes peeled on the horizon. “Boys aren’t really interested in me.”

“Not even guy friends?”

“I haven’t had any friends in a long time.” I realize as I’m telling him this how much of a loser I come off as. Well I don’t come off as it, I am. Sinking back into the leather interior passenger seat I sigh. It’s just so pathetic.

“Yeah, Sutton mentioned that.” He says lowly.

Lifting a brow I turn my head in his direction, “You two seem to chat a lot about me. What else has she said?”

Putting his hands up in surrender he shakes his head, “I’m not looking to be getting in the middle of any girl drama, here.”

“Whatever.” I mutter. “Do you think we can sit on the hood? I wanna see the sun set.”

“Sure.”

Grinning at him in thank you I remove my seatbelt and crawl out of his Camaro. Shutting the door behind me, my smile only widens at the evergreen trees lining either side of the view. The town is below and from up here it looks so small I can’t help but feel a weight lift off my chest. Down there is all the stress and the bad things but up here, we’re above it all.

“You look like you’re in Heaven.” Lou comments as he hops onto the hood of his car.

Sliding on the hood next to him I shrug, “I like it up here. I imagine this is what a kid with a magnifiying glass feels when he finds an ant hill.”

“What homicidal tendencies?”

Smiling with an eye roll I shake my head, “No. Big. Up here I feel in control.”

He lowers his head and I peek over at him to see him frowning. In this lighting I can see that his nose is a bit crooked, most likely broken at one point. His lower lip has indents from him chewing on it and when I see him do just that I notice his left dimple pops out. When he looks up at me I immediately look away and feel my cheeks heat.