My Problems

my friends

My friends.

I don't have a ton of friends. Just a few.

I prefer it that way.

These are my friends:

the innocent one. Let's call her.... Amber

The smart one: Hmmm.... Rose

The crackhead: Marie.

And then there's me: the dirty one.

Anyways, this is my friend group. It was at least.

U see, Amber moved, Rose is super busy with clubs, and Marie.... I guess we are just growing apart.

I miss them.

I miss the way we would roast each other for no reason. I miss the way we would complain about the food at school, I miss the way we would be carefree and shit.

I miss the way we hung out.

We all hung out in a way that I can't explain. Me and Marie would roast either on how bad our spelling is ( thank the gods of auto cucumber)

Amber would be talking with our coach ( we had to go to a after school program because our parents got out of work late) and silently be a spectator. While Rose would be working on homework and join in on our conversation.

We would talk about the most random things, like once we were having a conversation about how a mother had a baby when she was a baby ( extremely confusing) and sometimes politics

When I say politics, I mean we were just talking trash about Trump.

We would make jokes and just hang out and be carefree. I loved it.

Now that's gone.

I haven't talked to Amber or Rose since we were quarantined, I haven't talked to Marie in 3 months.

I should of known.

I'm a loner. The outcast. The one who hides in the shadows.

Everyone has a friend group that is huge. Not me.

I used to have a ton of friends back when I was younger.

Now those friends are popular and I'm pretty sure they forgot about me.

Before I met Marie, I had a friend named Hailey. We hung out all the time. We would play stupid games and just messed around.

I haven't talked to her in 3 years.

Rose keeps on trying to get us to talk but we don't have any classes together.

Anyways, next ex-friend: Elizabeth.

Elizabeth was my best friend for a long time. It was about 3rd grade when I realized she was slowly ditching me for more popular people. The problem was that we had all the same classes. For the next two years, she made me find new friends. Than she ditched me when we got to 5th grade.

The next person: Ryan. I knew Ryan since kindergarten. Same with Elizabeth. We were what my mother called ' the three musketeers '. Until 2nd grade. He found a new group of annoying ass guys. We quickly grew apart after that.

Back to my friends: I miss them a lot.

When COVID happened I was glad I got time away from school. Now I regret that deeply.

I haven't seen my friends in forever. I am constantly reminded about our inside jokes. I was constantly reminded about what I had; about what I lost.

I miss them. I keep saying this. But it's so hard. I dunno the last time I laughed.

I wish I was able to see them. To talk to them. They made my life easier. They were amazhang friends.

I know they will never see this, but I love u guys.

Imma miss u. ( there not dead btw.I just know when school starts again we won't talk much)

Bye.

kid_of_Neptune

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