lemonade | ethan

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"still nothing?" melanie asks, sitting across the room as she held dakota in her arms.

i shook my head, unable to say a word. it's been two days. i feel like i'm going crazy. i threw my phone beside me on the bed before stuffing my face into my hands. "i'm so stupid." i mumble, quickly and secretly wiping the spilled tears escaping my eyes, feeling extremely guilty. "why would i say those things."

"don't be too hard on yourself, devon. you were drunk, after all." melanie says, setting a sleeping dakota into his crib. melanie walks up to me and sits beside me on the bed, rubbing circles around my back. "ethan will give in soon enough. this isn't your first fight."

"i know." i replied. "this ones pretty serious, though. i basically told him he wasn't important." i felt myself frown.

"he'll come around. i know he will." melanie reassures me.

LEMONADE

all while the time read 10:30PM, the moon shined through my window, the crickets chirped outside and the night breeze moved my curtains, i lay in bed thinking strongly about everything that's happened in the past couple months.

i spent basically all summer with my friends and with ethan but something was extremely off. this burden, this secret i've been carrying on my shoulders all summer finally came out and with that, i got into an argument with ethan.

not because of the argument itself but because of everything the future holds, i know what i have to do. doing this won't be easy but nothing in life is ever easy.

i lift myself up from lying in bed and throw my jacket on. the same jacket i wore that one night on the yacht. i put my shoes on, grab my wallet and head downstairs and to the driveway to get into my car.

i wanted to make things right before everything changes.

as i drove to the convenience store, i found myself crying. i tried convincing myself it was for no particular reason but maybe it was because my heart was hurting deeply inside. i don't think i was ready to leave brooklyn bay. to leave ethan. but because i strongly promised myself i'd leave, i also had no choice.

upon arriving to the convenience store, i wipe my tears with the sleeves of my jacket and quickly get out of my car. when i walk in, the bell at the top of the door signals. the clerk greets me but i'm too quick as i make a beeline to the back of the store, to greet him back.

i open the fridge filled with drinks and grab what i came for and hurried my way to the clerk. he eyes me up and down once he noticed my puffy eyes. "rough night?" he questioned, scanning my items.

i coldly didn't reply as i handed him the money, gathering my change and leaving the store all together. it's not like he needed to know my business in this small town.

i hop back into the car and start my drive to the south side of town. it didn't take long since the convenience store was in the middle of both north and south sides.

when i parked outside ethan's house that night, i noticed all the lights off except for the ones in alexandra's room for she was always a night owl. their mothers car was nowhere to be seen, so i took that as an okay to knock on their door.