Perfectly Imperfect Life

Oliver Jones (ch 4)

Is money the most important thing in the world? no, but it's valuable and needed in today's society.

Ever since my dad left us last year, things went downhill. we were becoming financially unstable because my dad is the only one making a lot of money for us. my mom has a bakery but it's not enough to sustain our daily lives. I even have a little sister to take care of. Can't believe that she experienced not having a dad at a very young age. she's still 8 like come on.

you already saw my hardworking big brother side right? but I didn't show you my other side, which is being a prick in school.

I would always go into fights because these motherf*ckers can't shut their mouth and criticize my mother's bakery. that it's so small and plain that we'll never be successful. I just want to shove their brains with some sense of respect because that made me angry, really angry.

whenever I come home, of course, my mother would notice my bruises and wounds, but I never tell her what actually happened. yeah, my mom knows that some people are beating me up but she doesn't know why, who, or how.

she tried to bring that topic back up but I would always ignore her. it's not that I don't want to be helped, of course, I do. it's just that I don't want my mother to suffer any more pain ever since dad left her. she tried her absolute best and because of that we still live under a roof.

so I decided to work some part-time jobs, after school I'd go straight to my part-time jobs, after every shift, I'd work to another part-time job. I want to help my mom and save up for college so that I'll get a professional job so that she can rest and I'll do the work.

when I see my father again I will seriously beat the living shit out of him. because what he did was such a coward move. leaving his family for another woman? it sounds so cliche but when it happens to you, it makes your anger boil.

did I ever think of restraining myself when I get into a fight? well yes of course but I would always ignore that because I will not stop fighting those people that think making fun of my loved ones is a good joke. I will not stop fighting those people that think they hold the power to control our will and freedom, I'll beat the shit out of them seriously.

except for my mom and little sister, I hate people. it disgusts me because of how manipulative and toxic they are. don't make fun of someone that is struggling with something that you can't even relate.

what if you were in my shoes huh? I bet you'll piss yourself and cry because you can't do anything.

find a purpose that makes you keep going, if not, then what the hell are you living for?