Finding B

Chapter 38- depressed burrito.

Ok, so it's back to Baileys PoV just wanna say the first half is her POV when Tyler's saying all the stuff he did the last chapter! AND There is a small-time jump I was going to make it a big one but yeah I didn't obvs

(Just to clear it up heh 😅 ENJOY!)

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I could finally breath again, I was currently curled up in the corner of the couch a soft grey blanket wrapped around me, waiting for Alex to return with a coffee.

It was almost always sort of a surreal feeling whenever I had my panic attacks... like I'm numb? I guess. I was just glad it stopped I haven't had it that bad since well, rehab. It was probably a mistake coming here now that I think about it.

He's not even here, and he'll want nothing to do with me.

Alex soon returned handing me my coffee I smiled at her gratefully "Thanks" my voice croaked she smiled sadly at me before leaving back to kitchen.

It wasn't long before I heard the door opening and muffled voices following. I placed my cup down just as Ashley skidded into the room her eyes filled with tears as she ran towards me dropping to the ground as she pulled me into her body.

"Oh Thank god! You scared the fuck out of me, I- I'm so sorry I was being insensitive trying to drag you out. I get it I'm not actually your sister but please don't do this to me again." She whispered frantically in my ear her gripping me tightly.

"Forget what I said you're my sister I wish I never left the house" I admitted wrapping my arms around her too blinking away the tears. As she pulled away I heard a deep muffled voice from the hallway.

"God look at you! what happened?" She asked me fixing up my hair somewhat.

"Way too much alcohol and good old fashioned flashbacks... I'll explain later I- is that Ty?" I asked her as she sent me a soft smile.

"Yeah it is. We rushed here straight away after his mom called us... Dad and Mom are also on their way." She told me as I nodded.

"Ok I just need to talk to him" she nodded in understanding as I got up slowly making my way to the hallway. "Ty... is that you?" I called frowning as my voice came out as a croak.

His and Alex's hushed voices paused, before he answered as I made my way to the door way. "Uh hey" his voice was cold I hid my disappointment I guess I deserve it. It's now or never.

"I was wondering if I could Uh talk to you?" I asked him quietly god I was freaking out. I just need to get it out and tell him lay it all out there, I need to stop hiding.... maybe I'll keep a few things to myself but I need him to know I regret pushing him away.

I can do this just need to right words for once.

I followed him outside sitting down on the steps, I fiddled with my long black sleeves trying to calm my nerves. I took a deep breath before speaking

"I- just wanted to say that I'm Uh sorry about the other day I snapped at you when you were just looking out for me. The truth is I was freaking out because you make me- I fuck. I pushed you away-" I started stumbling over my words when I realised I'd almost let it slip I can't tell him I like him.

That's stupid Bailey no, I don't even know if I'm capable of a relationship anymore. I opened my mouth to continue hopefully better words would escape me but it was too late he'd already cut me off.

"I do care about you so fucking much... never felt this way about anyone before .... took a lot for me to say it .... I was wrong.... You don't feel the same way" my heart was racing I can't be hearing no no I know I messed up but this can't go where I think it is, I need to open my fucking mouth now.