Cold, Dangerous, and Dark (Jelsa Fanfic)

Chapter 51: Precious Daughter

~Jewel's P.O.V~

If they could read my mind, they'd be in tears. Do you ever feel like there's not a person in the world who loves you? I was drowning but nobody saw me struggle.

Fake smile, sad eyes, bruised wrists, and scratched thighs it describes me what I look right now such a broken girl. Tears kept pouring out of my red puffy eyes like an endless river.

The days kept getting worse and worse by the minute I hate him so much. Am I still alive or am I just breathing? Nothing feels right at all. I wish they could see all the pain and emotion that is built up inside me.

Nobody really understands me. I'm really lost inside. You can't be fixed by the same person who broke you. I cry, but I don't tell anyone about it. Tears are words the heart can't say.

Everyday I feel this pain. I just want to run away from everything. What's wrong with me? Jerome told me to make him a sandwich because he was hungry. Opening the fridge I took two loaves of bread.

While the two loaves of bread were toasting in the toaster I opened the kitchen cupboard to find a peanut butter jar. The sound of the toaster rang through my ears.

I placed the toasted two loaves of bread on a plate. I spreaded the peanut butter all the way to the edges of each slide of bread using a knife. "What's taking you so long to make it?!" Jerome shouted.

"It's ready" I said with a soft voice. Walking towards the living room he was sitting on a blue couch with his arms crossed and his legs on a small wooden stool. His menacing glare pierced my shivering frozen body.

"H-Here's your s-sandwich" I gave him the sandwich that I made. He stood up as he grabbed the sandwich from me. He started eating it silently. "I want you to clean my bedroom" he said to me as he took one last bite of his sandwich.

Curiosity fills my mind for a moment why wasn't he beating me? He usually beats me everytime I do something. Has he changed or not? "Yes, sir" I left the living room to get the cleaning supplies.

I opened the door stepping inside his bedroom. Placing all the cleaning materials on the floor I looked at the room. Anger boils inside me like I was turning into a tornado. Everything is so messy.

From the clothes on his cabinet all the way to his wreck study desk. Jeez, he's a messy boy. I quickly tied my white hair into a ponytail using my green scrunchie. First of, I swept all over the floor with the broomstick and the dustpan.

After that I organized his clothes and folded them neatly. The last thing that I just needed to do was to clean his wreck study desk.

My eyes caught the paper that was lying on the floor. I picked it up as I read what it says on the letter.

Dear Jewel,

I know you're wondering why I wrote this letter for you. All I could tell you was that last night I had a dream. The dream was trying to tell me that I shouldn't of hurt you so bad. Inside I felt guilty when I did all those things to you.

Back then, this is never the real me. Somehow, I guess I became a horrible cold hearted monster. I still remembered her dying in my arms she was my mother and I love her very much but the problem is she didn't love me back.

My mother hates me because father left her for his job on another country. She's sad when he never came back to us. The next few days she became sick and I wasn't able to cure her she died too.

My family was just average while my aunt and uncle that lives here was rich so I decided to move here with them. They took care of me and I appreciated it.

The past still haunts me. I never had this experience before. I'm just here in Arendelle looking for a certain job. I continued to finish studying in college before I went looking for a job. Just my luck, I didn't get accepted by any job that I dreamed off.

What was I going to do?! Again, everything is my fault. I'm not worth it anymore. Slowly and softly I started getting these weird feelings for you.

I'm just too shy to tell you what I feel. From the bottom of my heart I'm very sorry for being like this. Do you love me?

Sincerely,

Jerome

My eyes widen in shock at the last statement that I read. Do I really love him? He seems in need of my help. Is he just tricking me so I could fall for him making myself a complete fool?

Pain makes people change. I placed the letter back on the table. A shout from outside interrupted me from cleaning Jerome's study desk. Someone opened the door it was him.

I gulped nervously when I saw him standing there. "Do you love me?" he came closer. "I-uh, I don't know" I said looking down at my feet. He caressed my cheek as he looked at me.

"You meant something to me" he whispered in my ear. His lips brushed mine tenderly. He wrapped his arms around my waist as he pulled me closer to him.

Kissing him back I wrapped my arms around his neck. We pulled away staring at each other. "I don't know what to say to you" I tucked a strand of my long white hair away from my face.

"It's okay, baby" he cupped my face kissing me one last time on my lips. He left me in his bedroom feeling alone. If I love him, I should let him know that. A loud scream came outside the door it was definitely calling my name.

There's someone waiting for me outside the door I'm not gonna like it. Dying to know what's outside I went out of his room only to see him lying on the floor with his pool of blood.

It looks like someone lacerated his neck. Anxiety grew within my body. Little by little tears fell from my eyes. "Oh my god" I said with fear in my voice. Why do I have these feelings from him? It totally sucks.

My hands found it's way on my hair in frustration. "Darling, how could you be so blind?" a male voice asks me. I turned my head behind to see him standing there with a smirk on his face.

"Oh no, it's you" I cringed. He just laughed then he covered my mouth. "Shut up, you sad litte girl" his cold breath fanned my neck. I got kidnapped by an asshole.