AUGUST.

AUGUST #18

POV Ag:

Was she deadass serious right now? FUCKING HEATHER? i went outside and kicked the fence. Anna ran after me. She couldn't talk because she was crying that much.

„BABY PLEASE AG NO!" she pulled my arm.

I pulled my arm away and turned around.

„WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME ANNA? WHY?"

she fell down on her knees and cried uncontrollably. It broke my heart to see her like that but what i saw in there broke it even more.

„We're going home now." i turned around and started walking.

Anna got up and walked right behind me. She said my name like a hundred times and tried to hold me. Back at my house we went upstairs and i got myself a blanket. I didn't said a single word to anna. She sobbed while she was sitting on my bed. I went out of my room and closed the door behind me. I threw the blanket against the wall and slid down the wall with my back. I put my head into my hands and started crying too. After a while i got up and went to the living room. I sat on the sofa and starred at the wall. I couldn't sleep so i did this all night long. I really thought anna was different. I layed back and
started thinking.. every relationship has it's up and downs.. some might get trough it and some just say fvck it and leave them behind.. right now i feel so stressed out and drunk.. i wondered what anna was doing. Why did i even think about her right now? She almost kissed another girl! Just the thought of it made me sick to my stomach. I'm not jealous - no - i'm not jealous - no. I put my hands behind my head and closed my eyes. Was it worth it? Should i just let it be and let her do her. So many questions but no answers. My cat Zimba came up to me and meowed.

„You'll never hurt me hm?" i petted her until she fell asleep on my lap.

Even my cat could sleep. It would be so much easier if i just were a cat.. woah what the hell was i thinking right now? I need some sleep now - i'm serious. But the thought of anna kept me awake all night long.
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wow. just. wow.