Dares with the Boy Who Doesn't Care

Chapter Nineteen(Rose POV)

"Really....." I trail off as my gaze trails over to something on the opposite side of the room.

I let it happen again. I did. I can't blame anyone for my own stupidity. I fell head over heels for the idea of friendship, but it wasn't even real. I tried not to. I thought I was being careful.

Tears form on top of my bottom eyelids, threatening to spill over and make me look even stupider in front of the guys. I pull my legs up to my torso and bury my face in the soft hospital blanket covering my knees. The thick cast doesn't protect against all of the pain so I have another reason to cry. I don't know what hurts more my ankle or my heart. Yup, it's my heart.

Noah places a hand gently on my shaking shoulders, I hate myself, so much, for knowing it's him without even looking.

"I'm so sorry Rosey, pwease pwease don't cry." His voice child-like from tears. "When you cry, I cry." I remember him saying.

Actually he texted me this, along with a beautiful poem of words describing how he felt about me. Every time I felt alone or scared while in this hospital, as if reading my mind, he'd text me something and brighten up my day.

You're beautiful.
your beautiful
eyes, nose and lips
that smile when I smile
that laugh when I laugh
If you're happy
I'm ecstatic
If you're excited
I'm hysterical
but
I'll fight when you fight
I'll cry when you cry
if you're sad
I'm depressed
if you're angry
I'm furious
Those tears that fall
fall to me as well
so
Tell me
if your hurt
if your having a hard time
Tell me
what I cando
to make you happy
what I can do
to make you smile
that beautiful smile
that makes me smile
as well

We had to write a poem in our lit class and I wrote one about you.

I reread that while smiling and trying not to cry for hours. I thought it was sincere, that's how it felt. My feelings were sincere, that's why it hurts so much now.

He kept making me feel that way. He'd make me blindly fall for him. In the end I'm the one who's getting hurt.

My shoulders shake even more and I have to hold myself to try and calm down. "But why? W-why didn't you just tell me from the start?" My voice shakes as I mumble questions into my thighs.

Cameron's voice is soft yet steady "We were scared you'd say no."

I wish I'd said no. I wish I would've just turned around and kept walking until I was far, far away from all of them and their stupid game and their stupid dares! But no. And now I see how much they played me. How they're all just acting out what someone else told them to do. What Ella told them to do. None of this was real.