My Brother Was First My Boyfriend And Later My Husband

Chapter 14

Translator: PastTimer

Editor: PastTimer
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I turned my head and didn't want to answer him.

Gu Yan chuckled, he didn't force me to answer, just leaned over and kissed my exposed cheek.

He made love to me slowly and made me feel very hot and thirsty.

Sometimes, I think about whether I was born with strong lust; except for feeling pain the first few times, I could now gradually get pleasure from doing those absurd things with Gu Yan.

But it was just physical pleasure, my spirit still suffered from sexual abuse and forced incest.

Sometimes I wanted to forget it all, I wanted Gu Yan to push me over the edge and make me lose my mind in front of him, just being crazy together. But most of the time, he was very gentle to me, taking my feelings into account, crushing my bottom line further and further with pleasure, making me unconsciously fall...

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When results came out again, my score this time wasn't particularly satisfactory, I had fallen into twelfth place.

I understood in my heart that this was more or less my true abilities, so I further set A university as my goal.

As for S University, let it become a regret, there would be more regrets further down the road anyway.

The day the results were announced, Gu Yan came to pick me up. He was very busy lately and didn't come often, I didn't know why he suddenly came today.

While we ate outside, his cellphone kept ringing. He answered it up and said to me that it was something about the laboratory.

I was a liberal arts student so I didn't understand what he was saying, but I also realized that he had put some potentially very important things aside to just come and eat with me.

"Why don't you go back and see, it sounded like something important had happened?"

I didn't want to cause him trouble, I was already so big that I didn't need anyone to accompany me eating.

"It's okay, there were just a few data samples that they haven't been able to match, it's already so late so we'll just do it tomorrow."

Gu Yan had no plans of going back to school and even ordered a few more dishes without hesitation.

I didn't speak anymore, just sipped my drink and looked silently at the other people at the nearby tables.

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The dishes that soon arrived were all ones that I liked.

Gu Yan was very careful, and my likes and dislikes couldn't be hidden in front of him.

Most of the time he would tolerate me, but sometimes he wouldn't force me to eat those nasty tomatoes.

I know that being picky was wrong, so I had no defence in the face of his persecution.

"This time your results aren't very good." Gu Yan said to me when we were almost finished.

I put down my chopsticks, nodded, and asked him softly, "How did you know?"

Gu Yan smiled: "Duan He, I'm your guardian and I'm responsible for everything you do."

Yeah, guardian.

I blinked.

Since moving to Gu Yan's apartment, my mother had never contacted me even once. Even in the parent meetings, it was Gu Yan who attended.

"There won't be any problem in getting into A University," I picked up my chopsticks again and continued to eat, pretending that I didn't care about it at all.

But in fact, I really cared about what university I would be admitted to. In perspective, this seemed to be the only thing I could decide with my own efforts.

When we were on the way home, I sat in the back seat and cried quietly. There was a voice in my heart comforting me, it didn't matter, A University is also very good.

In this world, no one probably liked giving up on their dreams. But when you always underachieve, there would always be a quiet voice in your heart persuading you to just settle and accept reality, telling you that you can't change the way it is.

"Duan He, stop crying, brother will help you."

Gu Yan drove the car, looking straight ahead.

He didn't even glance at me, but he somehow knew I was crying.

I didn't go to school until the day of the college entrance examination. Gu Yan invited a tutor and taught me according to a timetable¹ and academic outline he wrote.

He was still very busy and went home late every day. On Fridays, he went home somewhat earlier, because we would have sex.

One night I got up to drink water and found that the light in the study was still on. Gu Yan was sitting there, seriously creating exercises for my next sessions.

I panicked hurried back to my room, not understanding why he was so good to me.

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Notes:

1- A timetable is probably like the one the mom wanted her daughter to follow in the animated movie 'The Little Prince'. It's a bit sad, but it's a very good adaptation I would recommend.

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PastTimer: This chapter is so rough that I can't even look at it *covers face in shame*