My Brother Was First My Boyfriend And Later My Husband

Chapter 15

Translator: PastTimer

Editor: PastTimer
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During my college entrance examination, Gu Yan took leave and stood outside the examination building along with a group of worried parents.

After finishing my last written test, I was free to go and saw him standing from afar.

He was very tall with a striking appearance, he went through the crowd like a hot knife through butter, approaching me.

"How do you feel?" he asked, a thin layer of sweat had already formed on his forehead from standing under the hot sun.

"Alright," I answered.

In fact, I had no confidence, even though I had already practised almost all of the questions before, I still couldn't be sure whether I could get a good score.

Gu Yan handed me a bottle of water to drink and took me to rest inside his car.

There was air-conditioning inside the car and the hot ad noisy outside world became separated from me just like that.

There were many people outside and many cars around. Gu Yan wasn't in a hurry to go, he instead silently watched the flow of people outside the car window.

After a while, he asked me: "Is there anything that you want to eat?"

I thought about it and shook my head.

I was accustomed to eating whatever food that was brought home, I felt that whatever Gu Yan recommended must be pleasant to the tongue.

Gu Yan took me to eat roasted duck. It was delicious and full of oil.

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Then, the torment of waiting for the results began.

During that time, I had insomnia, even when I fell asleep, I still dreamed of falling short.

Sometimes though, Gu Yan would be beside me when waking up.

When I saw him, I would feel more at ease and could turn over and sleep once more.

But in the more often moments where he wasn't there, I would hold the quilt with eyes wide open until sunlight dyed the room yellow.

Finally, on the day when the results came out, I hugged my knees and looked at the numbers on the computer in a daze.

The numbers on the screen were more than forty points higher than my score on my second mocking test. According to the admission requirements in the previous years, there would be no problem if I wanted to get admitted to S University.

That day happened to be a Friday and I shared this news with Gu Yan while in bed.

Gu Yan kissed me and said in a low voice, "Duan He is great."

I felt very happy, smiled, and kissed him back, almost forgetting what we were in the joy of it all.

I was so excited that I still couldn't sleep. I was lying in Gu Yan's arms and easily reached out to hug him.

The day I got S University's admission letter; I called my mother. My mother didn't know my score yet but was a little surprised to know that I passed S University's threshold.

I wanted to say that I missed her, but before I could, I suddenly heard someone asking my mother out to play.

Suddenly, I found everything too tiring, saying; Mom, are you busy? Then I quickly hung up.

The noise from her side was too loud.

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I hated the summer but liked watermelons. Wearing a pair of shorts and slippers, I bought one from a nearby fruit stand and put it inside the refrigerator.

When Gu Yan came back, I told him that there was a watermelon in the refrigerator.

He looked a bit stunned, he then cut a few pieces for us and ate them together with me.

I laughed while eating and said: "Gu Yan, I was admitted to S."

Gu Yan looked at me and then laughed together with me.

His teeth were white and neat and he smiled very beautifully.

We still went to bed on Fridays during our summer vacations, only occasionally making some exceptions. It wasn't Friday when Gu Yan asked me that day. He told me that if I refused, he wouldn't force me.

The day before school started. We did it once. Gu Yan was both fierce and gentle and I couldn't help crying from it.

After that, we bathed and dressed in a way as if we didn't do anything just then. Sitting at the bedside, he said to me: "Duan He, you're free now. I'm sorry."

His face was half-hidden in the shadow of the warm yellow light from the lamp, I couldn't see what his expression was.

This was a farewell sentence.

I was relieved but felt lonely.

After I starting my school year, I moved to a dormitory. Gu Yan asked me to keep the key to the apartment and told me that I could go home whenever I wanted.

I knew that what he did could never be forgiven with a 'sorry'. But I vaguely hoped that he could have said something else to me back then besides sorry.

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PastTimer: I finally got to edit this part, why does it leave such a hole in my heart? Every. Time.