Vapor

Chapter One

Hey guys! This is part one of Vapor, my new JJ fanfic. I honestly don't know how I feel about it and probably won't write chapter two until I know if it's something you guys are interest in reading. 

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When I turned 14, my life changed forever. The name Enger never used to mean anything. My mom was the only girl from a first generation Korean family and my dad grew up here in the Outer Banks. They met at college and she loved him even if he didn't come from the best family. In all honesty, I didn't know much about my mom's side of the family. However, when I was 14, my mom's father passed away and with that came a large inheritance. Large enough for my mom to quit her job and open a bakery. Large enough for us to pack up and move into the Figure Eight. Large enough for my entire life to change because that's what my dad's biggest wish was. He wanted my sister and I to have everything he didn't. I thought when I left, things wouldn't be that different. I thought I wouldn't lose him, but I did.

Over two years had gone by since my Kook life began. It was hard at first. The Kooks don't accept new faces easily, but on top of that my best friend wanted nothing to do with me. Ever since I moved, JJ hadn't spoken to me. He ignored my calls and texts. He stood up all of our plans. He erased me from his life. Eventually the Kooks warmed up to me though. I became friends with Sarah Cameron, Topper, Kelse. I didn't need JJ and he obviously didn't need me. I maintained my friendship with Kie though, even though she hated my other friends.

It was the summer before junior year and the hurricane had taken out everything. I sat on my roof with Kie, hitting my vape. She was supposed to help us pick up the yard, but both of us decided we needed a well deserved smoke break. We laughed as we watched my little sister fall into the gross pool. It felt good to have her by my side. If soulmates were a real thing, I was convinced that Kiara was my best friend soulmate. She nudged me with her shoulder as she saw me watching the neighbors. I lived right next to the Thorntons. Topper was in the yard picking things up, helping his dad. I had the smallest crush on him. He was the first boy I liked since JJ, but he was also taken.

"Adelaide, I love you, but are you serious?" Kie asked, laughing. "Out of everyone, you picked that. God, I hate it so much."

"Haha," I laughed with her and inhaled another huge hit from my vape. "He's not that bad when you really get to know him."

"Ugh," she rolled her eyes. "I wish we could go back to when you were in love with JJ." "I don't," I said immediately, taking one final inhale of vapor before putting my pen back into my pocket. JJ was the reason behind my smoking addiction. I started when he did to have more in common. I liked him so much, but he never saw me that way. He never wanted to be anything, but friends. It made me feel like shit. One sided love hurts, but it hurts ten times more when you're in love with your best friend and he doesn't feel the same way.

"When did you even start liking him?" Kie asked. "You were in love with JJ as long as I could remember." She was right. I fell in love with JJ when we were eight. His mom had just left and he was emotional. He stayed with us for a few days while his dad lost it. I remember sneaking into the living room one night and he was crying.

He sounded so sad, but I was the only one who noticed it. I carefully walked out of my room and snuck into the living room where JJ laid on the couch. His mom was friends with my mom and before she left, she asked her to keep an eye on JJ. I listened to his soft cries and crawled up onto the couch, next to him.

"Don't cry, JJ," I said, laying on top of him, hugging him tightly. "I'll never leave you."

He hugged me back. I wiped his tears with my hand and touched his split lip. I felt him flinch and I apologized immediately.

"I'm never getting married," he said. "Why did mommy leave me?"

"I bet she didn't wanna," I tried to comfort him. I hugged him tightly and kissed his chest

"I'm only getting married if it's to you, Addie," he said confidently.

That was the day I declared that I would only love JJ.

So much has changed since then. I wonder if he hated me because I moved to the Figure Eight. Did it feel like I was betraying him? I still thought about that. I wonder if I opened sealed wounds by living. It wasn't my choice though and he never let me pick between the Kooks and the Pogues. He pushed me away before I could tell him that I would pick him over anyone else.

"Well, I promised the guys that I would meet up with them," Kie said. "You fine manning the fort on your own?"

"I'll be okay," I said. "Tell the boys hi for me." "You know," she said and I knew exactly what was coming next. "You could always come with me. I bet the boys would love to see you."

"I'll pass," I said. I'd love to see them, but today wasn't the day. It never felt like the right day to be fair.

We said our goodbyes and I went back down to help my dad again. The yard was a mess and Agatha had really done it's worst. I looked over at Sydney who was soaking wet and complaining to Topper. He was laughing at her and his smile was priceless. I walked over and shoved Syd a little bit.

"Hey A," he said.

We told Syd to go do something else and took a walk. Topper and I had become very good friends over the past two years. It was due to late night talks and smoking on the roof. We opened up about everything. Lately, I loved and hated our serious times. Any time together was amazing, but now he only talked about Sarah. It felt like a repeat all over again. Towards the end of my friendship with JJ, he only talked about Kiara and it killed me. Maybe I was bound to be alone forever.

We talked about Sarah all afternoon, until finally going over to see Sarah. She was doing her normal Sarah thing and putting herself into danger. I chuckled at her as she pretended to get electrocuted. Topper freaked out and it was cute how much he cared, yet it was a bittersweet sensation. We all agreed to go to the party later and went separate ways for a bit.

That night was filled with drinks and sand. I went up to grab a drink, expecting it to be Kiara. I was in for a shock when John B was meaning the keg. He greeted me excitedly and called the others over. I stood there awkwardly as Pope and JJ made their way over. I said hello and took my drink. JJ wouldn't make eye contact with me and I took that as my cue to leave. I let out a sigh and took a huge gulp of my drink as I walked away.

The party was kind of a drag in all honesty. Topper was busy with Sarah and Kiara was nowhere to be seen. I downed my drink and walked away from the people in order to find a quiet place to smoke. I pulled out a joint and lit up. The comforting high took over and relaxed my body. I felt more and more comfortable as the smoke filled my lungs.

"Hey," a familiar voice said. I turned my head to see JJ. It was the first time in two years that he's spoken to me. He sat down a little bit away from me and lit up his own joint. I said hi, but after that we sat in silence. Then at the exact same time we turned to each other and spoke. "Oh you first."

"I was just going to ask how you've been," I said. He rubbed his neck and contemplated his answer.

"I've been fine," he said. "You?"

"I've been okay," I said. I was just about to keep talking, then I heard his name being called. He got up and turned around to apologize, but I cut him off. "Duty calls. Don't worry about it."

He smirked a little bit and took off. For a second it felt like I was young again. For a second I felt my heart flutter for him again.