when i miss England
i loose a track of my life
i loose what i have believed
i loose a focused sight on my career
when i realize, i think about living abroad
that means i am not satisfied with my life back home
but why ? i have my family, friends, and a boyfriend here
i use the language without problems; it's better, i suppose
it's a day before an important interview for a company which
i really wanted to get because i truly think this role can lead me
to my dream, my purpose of learning tragedy and unfair situations
in this world. but it's weird, it's really weird that i almost think i
cannot get it or they don't accept me for my prepared
presentation about a project that i wanna achieve
in this company, which i wrote about in my CV
what made me think like this? why did i lost
my mind inside my head― which now
starts thinking about applying a new
job that requires you to use
english in this country
that sounds great
all i want is something different
from tradition, domestic culture
that's why i never be able to fall into a love
with some handsome actors or idols here
they have exactly the same background as i do
so
i know
their lives are different
but not different compared to
singers or idols from other countries
that's why all of sudden i have started
learning Korean and fell into a k-pop boyband
i wanna be out of this track
i am about to cry
i don't know what should be a priority
help me please,
i missed a chance to see the most beautiful time
in England this spring
i haven't seen blue skies, flowers, people's welcoming smile
for this season
i'm crying, what did i miss? i haven't explored London fully
yet
when's my chance?
people say, the time is changing
people say, they are scared of foreigners
people say, they don't want to accept more immigrants
GOSH, that was one of my dreams!
dont take that away from me
that's the reason of me studying english and society
I wanna be sealed out from my country
why, on earth, did i come back here?
i miss england as if it's my long-distance relationship boyfriend
hey
say it's not too late to go back
please
please say I'm invited
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Daydreams
ŞiirA poem collection about my experiences of studying abroad in England. I had to go back home due to the COVID-19, which makes me frustrated, unsettled, and unfinished. That's why I decided to create a poem collection although I only have one poem h...
