I'm on my room right now, talking with my boyfriend through phone. We are arguing on a certain topic. He's asking for money but how can I give him that? We also need money, my mother is sick and my father's only a jeepney driver. Hindi sapat ang sweldo niya para sa araw-araw naming pangangailangan, lalo pa ngayong may sakit si Ina.
Nagkasakit siya magmula ng mawala ang nakababata kong kapatid, hindi na namin siya natagpuang muli sa hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan. So we decided to give up on finding her, but mother still can't. She love her so much because she's our princess.
She's missing for 5 years now, we were playing hide and seek that time when she started missing, I can't find her that's why I told my mom about that then after that we can't find her anymore. I know mother is accusing me for that, I can't blame her, it's my fault anyway. After that encounter, she became sick because she's abusing her health.
Until now she's angry to me, just like this time. She's scolding me for having a boyfriend, hindi sila boto kay Kayn na ikinainis ko din. They told me to break up with him, but I won't.
"Why can't you understand it Mom?! I love him, I really do! Why can't you just be happy for me? I hate this family!"
Sa sobrang galit ko ay nasagot ko sila, I packed my things and went to my boyfriend. Inaya niya akong magtanan nalang dahil ayaw sa kaniya ng mga magulang ko, alam ko namang kaya niya akong buhayin kaya't sumama na ako sa kaniya.
After a month of being with Kayn, nararamdaman kong nag-iiba na ang trato niya sa akin. He's not sweet to me anymore, wala na rin akong balita sa mga magulang ko that's why I decided to visit them. I want to apologize for my mistakes.
Kinabukasan ay naghahanda na ako para sa pagbisita sa kanila, wala ngayon si Kayn dahil may pupuntahan raw ito at ayaw niyang ipaalam sa akin. Since I'm alone in this apartment, I'll just visit my parents.
Nasa harap ako ngayon ng bahay namin, something's unusual. It's not alive anymore, it seems that there's no more living on here. I went in and got shocked when I saw nothing, there's no people here. Where did they go? As I roam my eyes in our house I heard a sound from our garden, who could that be? I went there and saw a figure of woman, I went closer.
"Who are you?" I asked.
"Jusmeyo marimar! Ginulat mo akong bata ka!" pati ako ay nagulat ng medyo mapatalon ito.
"I'm sorry, can I ask a question?"
"Do you where are the owners of this house?" I asked her again.
"Hindi mo ba alam iha?Namatay na ang mga nakatira diyan, magmula noong sumama sa ibang lalaki ang isa nilang anak. Sabi nila ay nagpakamatay daw ang babae at nagkaheart-attack raw ang lalaki nang makita niya ang kaniyang asawa na wala ng buhay." saad nito.
W-wait,w-what? Did I hear her right? My knees trembled, I felt numb. Am I dreaming? Is this true? No,no,no,no,no. I shooked my head, this can't be real. This just can't be real.
I went out in our house and came back from our apartment but when I open our door, I saw something that breaks me more.
My boyfriend is with my bestfriend, kissing each other, devouring each other lips. What a great scenery. Is there anything more? There are so many things that happened in this day, will I encounter more?
I already lost my sister, and now?
I lost my mother.
I lost my father.
I lost my boyfriend.
I lost my bestfriend, and lastly,
I lost myself.
I lost everything I have with that one mistake.
I can't believe that by just doing that thing, everything will be messed up.
What a cruel life it is.
What am I going to do now?
I wish I could bring back the time so I will not repeat it anymore.
I lost everything and it's all because of that
O n e m i s t a k e .
