It's an ordinary day for me.
Getting ready for school,
Proceeding to my personal desk,
Spending my lunch without anybody on my side,
Putting my earphones on my ear because no one wants to talk to me,
Going back to the classroom,
Receiving judgmental stares,
Hearing murmurs talking about my appearance,
Being scolded by my teachers even tho I haven't done nothing.
Then walking alone towards my home without friends to accompany me.
But yes, that's a normal day for me.
For a introverts like us.
And seems that I'll be doing my same routine again.
I don't have friends because they think that I'm weird.
Wearing big round glasses,
Always wearing earphones to escape this reality,
Loose blouse,
They say that I dress like an old woman,
And instead of black shoes, I wear a rubber shoes,
Like a total nerd.
But what can I do?
I don't care if they throw me words like I'm,
'Old fashioned'
'Nerd'
'Poor'
I'm getting used to that.
But everthing's changed when he came.
It is an ordinary day for me when my teacher introduced a new student.
Xavier.
Sounds like a rich kid.
Beautiful name for a gorgeous guy.
But I don't care.
I thought I don't care.
Our teacher told him to sit beside me resulting me to receive death glares.
Well, I already know that my life will become more miserably specially when he initiate a conversation with me.
And since that day, we became friends, I'm no longer introvert.
Since that day also, I'm always being bullied but he's there to protect me.
I felt like I'm in a fairytale where he's the prince and I'm that damsel in ditress he's always willing to protect.
But I know it's impossible, he's just my friend.
And we'll stay like that.
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It's Saturday morning when I received a message from him, asking me to go in the nearest park.
As usual, I wear my daily fashion.
Big t-shirt, rubber shoes, a loose jeans and a cap.
Mukha akong tambay sa kanto pero wala akong paki.
I went to the nearest park and to my surprise, there's so many people there and they are all holding a balloon!
What on the earth is happening right now?
Then I saw him, holding a bouquet of roses.
Then the people make a form of heart and we are on the center of it.
He's looking at me. My heart is beating hard and fast.
He walks slowly towards me then handed me the flower.
I feel like I'm blushing, I didn't even imagine that this will happen in my whole life.
But it did. It felt like I'm floating.
He confessed his feelings for me and he asked if he could court me.
"I love you, Thalia. Can I court you? You are the best thing that happened to me."
Those words that make my heart jumped in joy. I hope this day won't end. If I'm dreaming I don't want to wake up anymore.
I was about to say yes when I heard a loud sound coming from my ringtone.
I wake up, and tears started to fall from my eyes.
I dreamed of him again, and it still hurts.
We were happy back then, as a couple.
But then, tragedy is always there to break us.
*Flashback
It was our monthsary when he did not show up.
We planned to meet at our favorite place, the park. But he didn't show up.
I'm about to text him when her mother called me.
Telling that he has leukemia.
It's hard to accept ofcourse.
But we fought the battle, even tho there's no assurance that we'll win.
We did our best, gave him the medicines that he need. Supports him when he's operation is going on. We did stay on his side, but sadly he did not did the same.
He left us.
His family, friends, relatives, and me.
He was there for me when no one does, but now he left me too.
He became my protector when everyone's bullying me.
He became my comforter when I'm feeling sad.
He became the wiper of my tears when I'm crying.
He became my friend when no one wants to be one.
He became my world, when the world itself turn its back on me.
But now, he's gone.
My protector,
My comforter,
The wiper of my tears,
My friend,
And my world,
Is gone.
He left me too, like what everyone did.
*End if flashback
I wiped my tears when I remembered that situation again.
I still can't accept it.
Masiyadong mabilis.
Hindi pa kami handa sa kaniyang pag-alis.
But everything happens for a reason.
And we need to accept it, no matter what.
I can still remember when he became the reason why I stopped being introvert.
But now, the reason behind it is gone.
And now I'm alone again.
Like an introvert.
