We didn't mean it Hyung {Seokjin centric}

Confusion

Jin didn't want to believe it. Every part of him shook in denial, but his head felt light. The denial being too much.

It overwhelmed him, wrapped around his throat with fury. He didn't want it to be true. It couldn't be. His lungs began to burn. His lips felt chapped beyond belief as his tongue was dead weight in his mouth.

He was having a panic attack. Jin knew what it was, of course he did. The industry he's in basically commands hin to have it at some point. His hectic schedules, their huge rise to fame and the saesangs that constantly appeared.

But never him. He could count with one hand how many times he's had a panic attack.

1. When in their first show his pants fell down. Now he just laughs at his embarrassment.

2. When he thought Yoongi was going to end it.

3. When the band almost disbanded.

That's it. But now, his panic attack feels reasonable. His face feels wet. He's crying.
Any other time Jin would've probably done some joke to lighten the mood but when the realization that he wasn't alone in the car hits all his reasoning leaves him.

Taehyung. His Taehyung. His fellow member with big brown eyes, a boxy smile, and kindness that radiates off him.
His Taehyung was beside him in the car crash.

Jin could feel his body drift, his lungs burned to the point of no return. He could hear a ringing in his ear as his head flopped. Or did something he couldn't tell. Then blackness took over his vision as he fell into his own mind. His last thought being about Taehyung.

Where are you...please be okay.

The nurse watched as it unfolded, her techniques to calm him down useless and she decided sedating him was the best option. Jin was too weak for his body to handle it but before she could his body went limp and his eyes rolled back.

She frowned. Her hands gently pushing Jin's brown bangs out of his face and sighing deeply she put the injection away.

"I'm so sorry..." she muttered before taking one last look at his vitals and quickly leaving to report what had occurred.